Witches Hunt

2010-07-29T00:12:00.002+08:00

Wahh! It is that dream again! This is the 2nd time I dreamt of him! This time, it is more realistic

I went out with 3 friends. And of their way to their course reunion...I met him while putting my contact lens on.

And what do I do? I pretend not to see him and quickly walk out and hiding behind my friend so he could not see me. And what is so weird is that the whole thing seems so real and all decision I made is within my free will:(

And who are the three friends and HIM? Hmm...for me to know and for you to find out!

2010-05-30T22:57:00.002+08:00

It had been a year since I updated! lol..anyway..I just had a werid dream in the afternoon so I just decide to write down in a form of poem...

I had a dream

I was back in my old home

I had a dream

I went to my grandparent's room

I had a dream

I saw my grandmother passing you to wear something
(which I find totally werid since why the HECK you are doing in the room since my grandmother don't even know you)

I had a dream

Where you ask me if I am attending the wedding dinner later
(Which I find it werid AGAIN because why the HELL you are going to a wedding dinner with her?)

I had a dream

Where I smile and replied that I am not going(In the thoughts of my dream, because you are going so I am not)

I had a dream

Where both of us still talking and smiling

I had a dream

I leave my grandparent's room to let you change

I had a dream

I went into my brother's room

I had a dream

Where he told me you might be interested in me since he goes all the way to impress

I had a dream

Where I told my brother it is impossible since it had been quite some time ago, you rejected me

This is when I woke up

And ask myself, why the heck I am having this dream

since you are part of the past I already forget and realised that it was nothing more than a stupid crush.

But still, I find it interesting...

And who are 'you'? I don't think you know since you never read and to my friends who know, I think you know who...lol...just search for the clue I add in~_^

2009-08-20T21:57:00.002+08:00

I am finally rise from the dead! Well, at least my blog is. I think it has been days or even months since I updated my blog, which considered good since no one will come and read anymoreXP

Well, what happen during the past few months? In summary I had:

Finally gotten my diploma
Donated my blood
Found my first full time job (which I really really wish to resign soon...details later)
Flew to and back from Beijing in JulyXD
And, erm, finally updated my blog...lol

Ok...on with something I will tell...maybe starting from May ba...will be sketchy but hey, at least I update my unreal life situation for the past 3-4 monthsXD

Well, first for all, I would like to say that I had finally gotten my diploma after 3 years. Taking it, I feel like almost nothing leh...like a piece of paper that I don't know what should I do with it anyway..haiz...

And well, found my first job..can say is kinda boring over that but is not that job that make me feel like wanna to leave...is the people there..oh well...looks like I am not a good PR person after all..haha...

And as for my Beijing trip...I finally climb the Great Wall! Not all the way up but nevertheless, a good acoomplishment that I ever did..lol...more stories can be found in my Facebook though..all I can say is...I miss there...days where I found it quite fun...:)

And on Aug 5, I celebrate my dad's birthday at Ichiban sushi at Causeway Point, as usual, he order the same old thing sia..but I would like to add on the it was the first time in a long time that all four of us ate together..wow...

And also...on that day..it was also HIS birthday, whike part of me really wanted to wish him a happy birthday and send him gifts, however, I do not have the courage to do so since it was a long time since I talk to him...last year I guess...wish him all the best in his upcoming years

Time for me to let go though it is hard. Always been my side of story...wishing thinking...haiz

Short isn't it...nothing much to say...but oh well..I updated right?

Ta-da!

2009-04-12T16:10:00.002+08:00

Dancing in the rain
Feeling the raindrops on my face
Is it the raindrops or tears in my face?
I cant tell the differance anymore in the rain.

When I step into the cold room
The cold wind blast me with full force
Torturing me mentally and physically
But still, I feel nothing at all deep within the room

Maybe I am just crazy
Maybe I am feeling glad
Maybe, just maybe
I am feeling sad because I am not as sad as I imgine myself to be.

Well, I had just went and done something I think is on impulse. Oh well, its over and I think I can just move on despite feeling blue...hmm...

Man, how I wish that I can just erase everything away...

Ta-da

2009-03-12T00:07:00.001+08:00

Is offical! I have pass all my papers! Well, barely for my casino but hey, at least I passXD. Well, my GPA indeed drop but luckily, not too much as I expected. Threatre is a bit disappointment because I expect to get an A but got a B+ instead...oh well...at least, finally!

Bye TP! Thanks for all the memories!

2009-02-27T15:46:00.002+08:00

Well, the examination is finally over, and now, I got around 2 weeks for me to have fun before I get my results and continue to have fun or sunk, lol

All I can say is, beside the Casino Operation, the rest of the subjects I have pretty much confident in passing, lol

Since my Casino's coursework is only a D, which I do not know if it is a D or D+, I know for my passing kinda of really at the border line. If it is a D+, all is well but if it is a really low D, like 30 or 31 marks..I die...I guess I hope my coursework D is actually 32-35.9..hopefully. Haiz, Dr Lee never put +...make me worry so much or even worrier if I know I get an actual D...haiz

And the paper itself, I guess 40 marks just out of the window...oh and by the way, you only need min. 40 marks to pass the paper...though your overall percentage must be 50%...coursework 60%...exam paper 40%...so you need why i am so worried about what kind of D I am getting...

I really hope I can pass my Casino paper so that I can get through this final sem without any worries.

And as for my GPA, all I hope that it will not drop too much through it will drop regardless, based on what I see in my coursework grade, haiz...just my luck...

Finally went to apply for NIE just now. I hope I can get short-listed for interviewing. After all, besides NIE, I did not see much on where I should go anyway...and maybe out to the workforce? Seriously speaking, I prefer to study...lol

Wish all the best to me in my results! I will update soon with some nosense stuff...for now...I need to take a well-deserved sleep...Zzzzz

Seeya!

2009-02-09T12:41:00.004+08:00

~Waltz

The light is on her, the stage is hers. And the audiences and judges waited as she slowly began her solo performance.

As the dancer waltz across the stage, following the melody of 'Swan Lake', she began to remember that all this is for him.

That faithful night three years ago had robbed her of everything. Her partner, her lover and most importantly, her soul mate.

For three years, there was never a night that she would not miss him. For three years, there was never a night she would not cry, thinking of him.

On the tragic night, it was raining heavily. She was waiting across the street just for him. When their eyes met, she knew he was up to something. When he ran across the road to meet her, he was hit by a drunk driver.

When he flew away and landed miles away, so does her heart. She ran towards him, and all he did was hand her a tiny box that contain a ring and a eternal promise before he went to sleep forever.

And the rain continue to pour while crowds gathered. And that night, two souls were lost forever.

Their families and friends encouraged her to move on. But she refused, still clutching on the ring that he had last given to her. The ring that he promise he would give once they had finish their performance as a dancers together and leaves the dancing scene forever.

And so, she promise herself that she would win the solo performance and wear the ring on her finger instead of hanging it around her necklace like now.

Three years of hard work. Soulless body continue to push herself to the limit and she won.

The tears she shed while waltzing across the stage, and the emotion she displayed won the hearts of the judges and the audience altogether.

She did not went to collect her prize. To her, the ring she put on her ring finger after remove it from her necklace is her prize as she walk away. Feeling once happy that she had won the solo performance for him and their song.

When she walked out, it was raining heavily and she began to remember that night. As she walked aimlessly towards the red light, she too, met the same fate as her soul mate three years ago.

She felt no pain, only the feel of someone catching her from behind and she twirl around, a true smile formed as she asked

"You finally catch me"

"Didn't I promised?"

But to the amazed onlookers, the dancer that just died in the fatal car accident had a smile on her face when she died.

And their families buried her next to him. And while they are visiting, two butterflies flew past them, twirling around with each other. And to their joy and the bittersweet tears formed,
what they saw was;

The two lovers finally reunite together. Dancing their endless waltz together with a smile on their face at their own heaven.

---Waltz by cheerlygal. Inspired by the song, 一千零一夜 ( A thousand and one night, and hence, the rough estimate of three years) and the dancing scene of Squall and Rinoa in Final Fantasy VIII

This is my vision every time I listen to this song. It is a bittersweet ending and the characters I always had in my mind is Squall and Rinoa. I love happy ending of them but for this song, bittersweet sounded better.

And maybe one day, I will come up with the version on how the song relate to me. Just maybe. For now, just enjoy the rough storyline that purely based on the song itself. While some may argue that it may not fit, to me, it is just perfect. After all, different people have different imagination.

2009-02-07T01:14:00.004+08:00

It is confirmed. I will be going to Beijing from 13 June to 19 June this year. My youngest aunt is going to book the air tickets now. I will be going with her, my grandma, my uncle and his wife.
Was supposed to go to Hong Kong but my youngest aunt said she felt nothing much there and moreover now tickets to Beijing is cheaper, so she decided to go there after asking all of us.

So, before June arrives I need to:

Study hard and pass the four papers
Wait for results in March 12 and if pass. Time to burn those darn lecture notes!
If fail, sadly *touch wood* have to re-take
If fail again, repeat the whole semester. Will still go Beijing but...
Hopefully 3 and 4 will not come true
Take that piece of paper that state I earned the Diploma after 3 long years in May and be gone!
Meanwhile, between March to June, I will work like crazy to earn the trips money. Yes, I pay everything by myself...
At the same time, I will go donate blood at least once again!
And have some wild fun during days off!
And so, with so many things, where got time to think of something else?

Ya right, I think I am lying to myself. I still think too much though, cant be healthy....

Oh well, just some news! Ta-da!

2009-02-01T22:44:00.004+08:00

In August 2003, if I am not wrong, I get to know this guy from online. At first, he kind of annoys me but soon, just few months after I knew him, he began to grow on me. I still remember our conversation, jokes that we share.

Lets call him H

In a way, you can say, I really like H at that point of time. I was only 14 and so was him. We studies at different schools. hes at top notch while mine just...well..normal.

And then, just as qucikly he came into my virtual life, he dissppear. That's when I realise that I was well inlove with H. Haha, sound so corny now.

At the same time, well, there is this another guy who treats me well but I never really like him in that way but as soon as H disappear, I dunno why but I ended up liking him simply because he resemble in terms of characters like H. But it is not totally replacement or what they like to call, I still like this guy for what he is as well. People who went to the same secondary school as me would know who he is la, lol. Dun worry, right now I like him nothing more than friends.

I like all my friends anyway..lol

Ok, off topic..ok..what next.

H appears, again, when I was in sec 4, nearly a year after he disappear. Claming his com spoil, oh well, he might be speaking the truth but who knows right?
But anyway, I thought I was totally over him. So as usual, we chat like old friends blah.
I still remember how he tutor me in Maths while I was studying in O-level.
Quite concidencetally, the topic he revise with me came up mostly and perhaps because of that I manage to pass, I guess

After we get the results, he goes to a good JC and I to TP.
All this while, I am locking away whatever leftover feelings I had for H inside, telling myself that it was a crush years ago.
But how can I explain to myself that I dress up nicely just to meet him, even it last less than 5 mins?
How can I explain that I was happy and high all the time when I manage to see him?
I was suppose to be over him right?

I am lying to myself all the time. I even had a 'boyfriend' which lasted less than a month, thinking that that I may get over him. When he asked me, I just accepted because of that, and also I was rather shock that someone can like someone like me.
I know it was very selfish, till now, I still feel guitly for what I did despite that fact that the ex did do something to irk me, but that was a different story. I was partly my fault as well anyway.

At the same time, H and I rarely talk though. I guess we are bz with our own things.

I remember in year 2007, I kind of have this huge crush on this guy. Totally. For like half a year but dimmed down when we actually start to talk less.
That year, was my first and last present to H, I even tried to stitich something(which fail) to him. I even joke I would stitich his face when he turn 21.
I dunno but his sudden appearance, yes, he do disappear again for quite sometime, he unlock whatever I lock and I knew, that point of time, for the past 4 years, I never really gotten over him.

At the point of time, I was so close in revealing what I feel, I dunno if he had guess but ever since last year, just before he got his A-level results and after he got into NS. He just stopped talking to me.

Just stopped. I dunno if it is really concidence that all the time I tried to talk to him online he was busy. I always said hi but he never reply. He never blocked me, even now, but never talk.

I attempted, I tried but in the end, I gave up.

It was a stupid crush that gotten big this time round, I told myself.

But I cant help but feel jealous when I realise he still taking to a girl we knew online. She is taking her O-level this year. I feel that, in way, she is more closer to him that I was ever with him back then.

So, if I was over, why I feel jealous. And why I cry when I realised that?

I find it stupid, he was just a online friend that I only met twice but yet he created so much impact on me, I find myself stupid.

And I find it stupider to cry over this one-sided love that I have been habouring for like almost 6 years now. I find myself to be a stupid girl after all. Crying over a virtual guy.

After everything, I realised that I was indeed falling deep inside. And it was a heartbreak even though it was just me and my stupid thinking. He is just happy with his own life I guess.

Now, I realised everything, I finally let go. It feel goods and now even though it still hurts even thinking about it, I know given time, I can truely forget about this.

Now, currently, I admit I still dunno if it is just a crush or even maybe slightly more that that. With a guy nick by my close friends and also his seniors(no, he is not younger than me, in fact older but came in poly late)lollipop, and recently I dunno why, not exactly guy or girl.

Lollipop, I think I prefer this slightly more, is somewhat a cross between admiration for his talents, as well, for his looks(I know he is kns by my close friends standard but eh, whatever:P)
I love to talk to him when we meet and I like the way he talks as well as his rather odd characters and manners. In a way, I find him cuteXP

So well, the reasons I start to write all this down because I really need a closure to this sillyness of mine.

And H, if you happen to read this, and do not pretend you dunno who you are because it is so bloody obvious, please tell me how you feel all this time so at least I know what exactly happen. All I want is to start everything over again as friends back then and remains as just that.
I really miss the old days of old jokes and random lameness while online.

I pour all my heart out now and I finally start anew.
And maybe, new destiny awaits? lol
Now, I think my close friends is sort of puking now knowing I find her junior cute..lol. Sorry, you know my standard la:P
All the best to all of us who will be leaving TP soon(hopefully, for me)!

Bye!

2009-01-07T01:19:00.005+08:00

Back from watching Lea Salonga in Cinderella with Xue Li! My first time inside the Esplanade threatre despite working there for quite sometime now...lol. Least to say, it was grand and I enjoy the show even though is like...I am level 3 (Stage Level 1) therefore the downside is I can't see the actors' face and expression even though I strain my eyes very hard to see them:( Oh well, the price to pay for buying a not so expensive ticket....Anyway
But their singing is very nice and some songs is touching:)

Now I believe that everything is possible:)

Oh yes, something Wan Ting may envy me fromXD
While waiting for Xue Li, I decided to play at the arcade to pass time. I played the one where u need to pile out some mentors sweet and then drop to win some sweets and even toys.
This is my own experiment 135,yesh, I spent $13.50 in total:)

Two Stitch, and a string of tigger and pooh! lol. I was lucky enough to pile up one Stitch to give me two Stitch. Now I know why Wan Ting love to play...it is quite addicting and somehow you tend not to stop playing till u get the toys that is so near! LOL

Thats all! I enjoy myself today despite the minor setback in the morning regarding about the project. Oh well, what done is done, everyone be happy!

Seeya!

2009-01-04T03:52:00.002+08:00

Happy year 2009! Lol....though a bit belated
Change a few things in my wish list,
For example, I already got a PS3:D
I survive my SIP:D
I have a 3.5G HP:D
But well, Rinoa isn't in Dissidia Final Fantasy:(

But still, some of the wish I haven fulfill will continue this year...
will be mean if i did not fulfill and yet add on ya? lol

And not to mention, how i really really wish I can come up in the open to tell him how I feel...I mean...it had been like...that long and yet...haiz

Stupid me, haiz. Oh well, I will see how year 2009 goes than...in the mean time...

I need to complete all my projects!...if not...I dun tink I can get the diploma this year...argh!

2008-12-21T01:00:00.002+08:00

Yesh! I finally bough a new hp! Sony C902XD Cost me $248. Actually, if I bough it 2 weeks ago, it would be just $198. Too bad at that point of time the line is still under my mum's name...oh well...

Now still getting used to my new phone. After 3 years with Nokia, it will take some time to adjust, lol

Anyway, Dissidia: Final Fantasy is finally out. I am kind of disappointed that only Squall is in, haiz...oh well..at least he is my only reason in playing this game and I still find him the most good looking of the 10 heroes, hehe. Where's my Rinoa:(
Haiz...better than nothing though....

Oh well...off to explore my new phone!

Till the next time!

2008-11-25T20:37:00.005+08:00

Donated my first bag of blood today! Hehe, finally, I did something I always wanted to do since the beginning of he year! lol, feel goods, so briefly, here is how blood donation goes...

1. registered by filling the form. lots of yes or no questions
2. going for a brief health check. Weight myself and discover that...oh well. not going there:P
3. test for 'iron' in my blood, passed that since it sink to the blue colored liquid XD
4. Donated my blood! Hehe, the nurse said my vein a bit small so blood flow quite slow. Also, my blood is quite think which is not good at all. Advise to drink more water...hmm...I will...
5. refreshment! Milo and yakult at one go. haha. I dun feel anything though. Except that my left hand feels quite numb(even now)

Thats quite cover up. Only a little pain is involved but overall is okay. Need to excerise my arms more since my vein too small, haha. Going for next blood donation next March!

Oh ya, and finally, I get to know my blood type 2 weeks later. Hehe, one of thr reasons why I donate blood la, haha...

2008-11-09T21:40:00.004+08:00

Reinventing me to catch your eyes

To let you see the different side of me

And pretty much everyone else too

There's a fine line between love and lust

But yet, what is love and lust?

Can you tell the difference?

I cannot tell you, for I never experience

Love and lust but only adore from afar.

This is neither a poem or prose, is just some random one, two line thing coming together. I feel like writing these down partly due to the fact I feel the same way in a few lines.
Inspiration from the fan fiction, 'Reinventing me' by Emerald_La tis(I think that is her spelling...)

Now currently stuck on playing the new Valkyrie Profile game, despite the fact it is Japanese, I pretty much can understand 40-45% of the whole thing haha.
That, despite the fact I know I have work to do, always push to the last minute though...

Hating someone is painful, in the end, even though you thought you get your revenge, you may ended up lose more than you thought and that actually, you do not really get your revenge...so...what for? Thats the point in this new Valkyrie Profile game...oh well...you don't exactly get a good bargain with the devil anyway...

Somehow, when I read reading others blog, I realise that I am missing on the fact that I seldom blog about myself, feelings etc, I guess I am being too private, at the same time, I do not feel like offending anyone, just in case I suppose, especially since I wasn't exactly popular with people, I guess.

Like...when I was just seated not beside but rather a big gap at the centre of the classroom later by another row of tables, the guy was like, 'can I change with you' to the another guy in front of him and he replied 'I thought you want her to change her(while looking over at my direction) seats instead'
Not the first time it happen, neither I believe is the last time. I just don't want to list it all out...Once or twice, okay...happen to me only...maybe a prank that would go away, but over the span of 2 years? Give me a break...
Guys, am I that ugly or what? Do I make you puke on seeing me? I don't really talk to you guys either. What's the snickering for?
Frankly speaking, I am really tired of all these. Maybe I overlook some of my flaws but I just..don't know if you guys don't tell me anything...
Sometimes I really feel like crying at one corner and wonder why all these happen...

Maybe I wasn't meant to be with anyone...

Ok, there, I said it. I feel really mentally tired of all these...really

Sometimes I wonder, is there someone out there will try to understand me? Most give up in their process...I know I am complicated, everyone is...I guess. I just cant understand myself...

Whatever...at least I just clear some of my thoughts...

But I guess...I am back with putting back my mask of smile and pretend everything is okay even though I know it is not.
For those who try to understand me, I am sorry that I have let you down. I guess I did not try hard enough to open my door wide enough or the courage to do so. But I am not giving up, I will try to get back even the small bit of what is before, best is most.

Give me time, I hope is not too late...

And well, you know who you are, I thank you for being there for me most of the time even though I know you are busy. I know I annoyed you at times but thank you nevertheless. This year would not be easy without you.
I may not be your closet but you are closet to me.
Thank you...and I hope we can be still the same for quite some times in the future. Because, reality have prove that forever is hard when all of us have different path to go...

Oh well, I guess this is the first time since dunno when I sort of bare it out. I hope I will not offend anyone, I am sorry if I do, I just wanna clear things up. Maybe is just misunderstanding or over-sensitive on my part..

Bye, for now.

2008-11-03T23:08:00.008+08:00

Some photos fm the Halloween event at TP!

The Scary family. I was suppose to look

emo but eh..turn up I look as if I wanna slp...darn

fail my acting..lol

Accepting the straw doll from Jigoku Shoujo...

He must really hate someone to send him/her to hell...

Waiting for him to untie the straw doll so Jigoku shoujo can

drag ppl to hell with the above mention scary family to torture..whahaha...

Suppose to have a bell on hand and when it ring...byebye:P

Why she is smiling and not emoing, dun ask me, I dunno either..

Wrong expression lah...

That's all! Wanting send me only these..lol

I like this fanart...is literally not even death do us part, lol. Kinda think is Rinoa's grave which she and Squall raise from. Yesh, if you dunno, it is the fanart of Squall and Rinoa being undead.

Talk about Halloween mood eh? lol

Thats all!

2008-11-02T00:56:00.002+08:00

I feel so ARGHH now! I did one of the most embrassing thing EVER today, ARGH!

I never do that nor try to do that B4! While, b4 tonight...

But no, you will not get to know what I did unless u r one of those present...lol

I dunno why though but it does bother me a lot even though I was told not to think too much or dive deep into it...

Whatever

Haiz...

2008-10-22T01:04:00.003+08:00

DOOR

Behind every door, lies a soul.

A soul that speaks of life.

A life that yearn for things.

Things that could be anything.

Anything, be it physical, mental or emotional.

Emotional, I shall speak of this soul.

Soul who yearns for a place in the world.

By trying to go door to door, finding a place.

Some doors slam shut right at its face

Some doors just close the door slowly

Some doors do not even open at all.

Some doors let the soul in, only to push it away.

The soul just bites it lips and refuse to cry.

The soul knew it may found a door who is willing to let it open

And never shut it out.

But with just too many slam and closed doors.

The soul just retreat into its door.

Lock it with locks.

Ignoring the sounds beyonds its door,

Who is trying to get in.

The soul clam its ears shut

And just let the bitter tears fall

For the soul do not wish to risk itself

To feel the hurt of slamming and close doors

Ever again.

Because...in the end, you're on your own.

The bitter saying it read about it before..

-DOOR-
by cheerlygal

The on your own line came from FF8 actually. This whole thing is somehwhat of a rather negative reflection of someone who feels rejected, even though it may not be intentionally. Or if you play FF8, you can say more or less is like Squall but erm, I can just say that I got inspired but it is not really about him.

haha, just read it and tag what you think, if you happen to read, lol

Ciao!

2008-10-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

School reopening next week and I finally update after 2 month plus! Well...not as if a lot of people are reading my blog anyway...lol

Let's see, time table fairly ok la...tues no school and the rest is still...reasonable...lol.

Manage to get Understanding Theatre as my CDS subject, quite happy about it...and the classroom is at SAA Alummi Lounge ) 0_O...I wonder how to conduct lesson there..hmm...

I just hope that it is not purely theory base though...I will be bored to death..like..let's learn Shakespheare's work and anyalse it!(Erm, sound like literature already...)

Well...besides that, lots of things have change these past months..eh...ya..things have change...for good and for worse..both have...I wonder..hmm...

Oh well, I shall enjoy b4 schook starts! Ciao!

2008-08-10T01:40:00.002+08:00

Ok...after posting up my favorite video, time to have some...update after like....what...3 months? lol. the blog turn rusty liao...haha

First of all, I survive my attachment and going there to work part-time, lol. Right now, I left with my report that I haven even started yet and the deadline is on Monday, 4 pm....way to go man..lol.

Secondly, things kinda pretty dull now, I dunno why. Maybe some excitement is all I need right now...lol.

Holiday now I suppose, besides working....I guess back to my Japanese class and some 'wild' shopping...catch up with friends etc...I guess....

What else can I blog about? Hmm...maybe about my obsession with someone/something? Erm, better not....for now...lol

And I will like to announce through here (though I guess not much people will be reading...lol)...for now...that I will be having a birthday chalet from 5-7 Oct this year, anyone interested, please tell me so I can estimate how much food I need, lol. Will be at costa sand downtown east, going to book it soon..lol.

Seeya soon and yup, I guess I will start on my report now..playing too much chocobo dungeon kind of make this report a drag..haha

2008-08-10T01:36:00.001+08:00

Oh ya, just post up my favorite video of all time...

FF girls VS Dead or Alive girls! Enjoy!

2008-05-08T22:44:00.002+08:00

Well, I think is another not so awaited post, haha..since I think I rarely updated because I am too lazy and tired from work to do it..lol

So far, my attachment over there is okay, did the usual stuffs and learn a little new things everyday. Get along with the people there though one or two tend to get things up my nerves, oh well...

Life can be indeed so fragile, you never know what will happen next, haiz....

Oh well, really not sure what esle to update. Lots can be said from my job experience but I think I prefer to keep it to myself, lol.

Oh well...thats all! Ja ne!

2008-04-19T00:53:00.002+08:00

WOW, it has been a MONTH since I update! Started working since on the 17 March and never stop since..lol

Kinda admit always kana scolded for the first few weeks but now slowly getting used to it le

The people working there are great! Most of them are from overseas though, and one happen to be the same as me, as a student attachment.

The kitchen staff there are really nice, and one of them happen to alight the same station as mine so we kind of go home together if happen to off work at the same time, lol

Pretty short for a whole month of SIP? well, yes, kinda but I am afraid if I continue typing, it will be very long..lol, feel free to ask instead..lol

And just being super random...Cass(if u happen to read la) will u be free during weekdays? Long time never see u le..lol...keep in touch!

I know I can blog a lot of things but erm..I am kinda lazy..lol...lots of thought to be written...hmm...and just being super random...the music/songs in the restaurant have been the smae ever since I work, now I even know how to sing some of them..lol

Work tmr after SIP talk! Till next time!

2008-03-13T23:28:00.002+08:00

Haiz..cant get my mind off the SIP thing. 5 months, 20 weeks X44 hrs, 120 working days, dealing with customers of all sorts. No more sundays for the next 5 months to sleep whole day(lol)..This is the F&B industry, the industry I chose the day I add as my 2nd choice during JAE 2 years ago...

I just wonder if I can survive? After all, I always work indoor, be it in Suntec or Defi.....ok....save the Service Practicum module but customers were more forgiving as they knew we were students

But once outside, they dun care if ur student or not. To them, they just expect excellent service from it.

Can I do it? Can I provide exellence service...even to customers that are rather...picky? Will I screw up? I dunno...I kinda scare and excited about the whole SIP thing...well..it just 5 months, after I graduate...I suppose is endless till I retired ba...haiz

I hope I can prove myself I can do. Feeling doubtful now...next monday got to report work le..hope everything goes well in the next 5 months ba...

On the postive note, I am going to save the money I earned during SIP and then gone on for a shopping spree(of course control la) after 1 August! Yahoo!

Till then!

2008-03-12T22:38:00.002+08:00

Yo! Back from zoo and night safari trip! Was kinda dampen by the heavy rain:( but we still have fun!

Check my results the first thing I got home. All pass! Phew! even though my GPA dropped by 0.05...but still ok la..lol...with the highest score B+ for service and lowest C.

Will blog and post up pics soon!

2008-03-09T23:55:00.004+08:00

Yo! Finally blog like after how many millions years le...lol..Just some random posting that I will do now, so basically....just around lor..lol

Maybe I should talk about the STB award thing? First of all, I will like to comment that it was my first time putting on such a thick makeup..with total of 26 pins on my hair? Dun believe, look...:

Bit overbored right? haha..ppl thought I go perform or something..lol

Next up...hmm...chalet. ...quite fun actually..lol...I am kinda of anti-social..dunno why also..play blackjack and won some money..erm..I guess is pure luck that I won ba..no skills or whatever..just luck..lol. Then I went back on Thursday evening..hehe

Fri..nothing much..do my Jap hw and attend class...I think I am lagging very behind though...lol

Met my LO on Sat..is Mr Tai...haha...lucky I guess? lol
Sunday..nothing much also...just shoot zombie with my Wii and my newly bough Wii 'gun'..lol

Oh yes, a rather interesting video I found...take a look:) A BIG ad..lol

Bye!

2008-03-01T23:30:00.003+08:00

WOW! Holidays is here...hehe...well.....only 2 weeks more before I will start my attachment at Ichiban Boshi..haiz...lol

Ok...exam over...so what I am going to do? Well, next week Tues is work on STB ceremony as a wait staff, wed-fri, chalet, and then march school holiday...to...ZOO!

Oh ya, perhaps a summary of how the test like?

Wine---hmm...as if I knew the main ingredient of liquerer and grape variety of each region
F&B-Erm..cant rmb which one I not exactly sure
Accounting-Mr Lim, I believe I own you $7000..just dun deduct 70 marks from me:(

Just pray I pass la..otherwise supp papers...haiz.....

You know, all of the sudden, a old online friend of mine ask me to have courage..but do I have it? Do I believe in myself? I not sure...
"At least show your intent and wait for response." Will I even show my intent the first? Haiz...I dunno leh....move on...maybe?

How about this..if you ever read my blog. Maybe I am not that obvious at all...right? A line of hint....我珍惜你的歌太过过火了。ほんじえがすきです。。。

Whatever...I think is better to regret that I had told you rather than regret even more for not telling you.

2008-02-20T01:09:00.001+08:00

The photo says it all:)..erm...though I admit I did a rather bad job trying to add the names..some cant be clearly seen but at least all the names are clearly seen rather than the post...haha. Enjoy!

2008-02-19T22:00:00.002+08:00

Wow! I update fast right? ya right? Bad news...I lost my memory card that store all my photos! Argh! *SOB* My previous memory...now..I had no choice but to buy a new one..*sob*

BESE(60%) coursework...I fail! Well...not so surprising seeing that I fail my project but still..argh! And not to mention...my class has the highest failure rate......sad.....

On a happier note..at least my wine score a B in the coursework..now must work hard on the exam le...

Suppose to study this week since its study week but...I kinda slept through mon and tues..lazy me...argh! I need to wake up!

Seeya!

2008-02-17T21:00:00.002+08:00

Finally! The term ended! All I can say is...everything is over, happy or sad, is all in the past..lets look forward for a brand new days ahead!

Oh ya, the libra forecast, I already shifted on the right, no use putting it as part of the post where it can disappear...haha

Now left with main exam to go...hope I can pull through...though the coursework for wine is still unknown...I still hope I will not get to sit the supp paper even before I sit for the main exam..lol

Chinese New Year...hmm...I will upload the photos soon...erm...ok...when I feel like it...but will be the near future ba..lol

CNY seems to be rather the same though..haha...prawn noodles at my maternal grandfather hse every year! Once a year..hehe

After main exam..if everything goes well...is onto attachment already le...so fast...but means I finally have a stable income! lol

Oh ya..Wanting said that I am single, subject to avaibility but VERY desperate(for the right guy I like...lol)...hmm...I wonder how true it is...haha...for me to know and for you to find out...lol. Oh ya, to add one more point...I am happy though, with the things are right now:)

Hmm..maybe I want to add something more to my wishlist? lol

Happy days every1! More posts soon I hope!

2008-02-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

Just gotten my F&B course work results...I will not let the matter rest! Peer Appraisal I got D+..like what the hell? Did I do not did anything!?!?! I believe I done my part well and do not slack off,yes, I admit I am late some of the times and perhaps some other things as well, but do I deserve to get D+?

My dear group mates, please, search your conscience and ask yourself this, what did I do to get D+? Did I never do my work? Did I anyhow do my work? No right? Why..WHy...WHY!

Because of this , my project is less 10% and so on..ok...never mind about the grade..is my principle ok? Now everyone who seen the grade think that I am a leecher! No I AM NOT!

Why? Why you been so unfair to me? I call one of you and realised that just because another one of you don't like me, just make me down like that! It is just not fair! Why should I deserve less mark when I did as much as you guys did? WHY????

I never mark you dwn even I sort of don't like you. I put personal feelings aside and mark you fairly. Yes, I know you dislike me but you should not mark me dwn just because of this..is just plain unfair to me!

Do you know that I cried when I am typing all this? because I feel is very unfair to me! I did my best for this project and yet, deserve this...

The bottom line question is...after working together for this project, do u think my contribution really worth only a D+? Is not fair...is just not fair....and I cried because it hurts me to know that my team mates do not like what I do...feel that what I do is nothing to them..hence the results shows it all...even getting a C is still okay...D+..this is too much for me...

It makes me wonder..why should I do so much since you are giving a D+ anyway..it just shows how insignificant I am and/or my contribution....

I hate it, I hate it....but my parents are right...
You have to accept injustice...but at the same time, show that you are not to be bullied...

So...that being said...I going to find Mr Tai tmr or if not...Monday, I will not let the matter rest, is the matter of my principle, my reputation...I am not going to spoil my reputation because of YOU! I will show the rest that I am a good team mates, I will not let this matter to bring me down...after today, I shall cry no more....for the heartless team mate of mine....

2008-01-24T18:29:00.000+08:00

Wow! It had been ard 3 weeks since I last blog! LOL, getting slacker and slacker...hmm..well, not really, haha. I just find no time to blog(ya...right)

Perhaps u are finally with this phrase(if ur a regular reader...that is...I wonder if I got any anyway:(). I got so many things to tell butI think, not much today ba...hmm...summary(as usual:P).

Ok, my mind is rather scattered now, so...I may just jump topics ard so..somewhat read it with a rather...slowly I guess?

Hmm, maybe I should talk about my days at Sugarloaf? Not bad, rather less stressful than Top Table. Was a headwaitress for the first week...haha...manage to hit target...$800.50..lol..on wed and $103 on Fri. All I can say was...it was a rather good experience to see how u can handle situations, however Mr Mailk told me I was too soft...erm...ya..sort of...I cant bring myself too be too...overbearing I guess..

Oh ya, openhouse on Fri, teacher's lounge, so no customers except teachers. I met my ex assistant form teacher cum maths teacher! Mdm Tan! lol..such a small world. Ms Ng as well...haha...I think they surprise to see me there ba..lol

Ok...2nd week, I was cashier...haha...cashier was funXD. I never short money...enjoy it..hehe..thats all I can say.

This week, server but counter staff yesterday. Still very fun...haha..oh well...at least I get to enjot whatever I do..hehe...

What esle..oh ya..projects

Rush my F&B project like mad..haha. Manage to hand in on time though. lol, not going to say much but oh well...what most important is that we can make it on time:)..lucky presentation is on next week...otherwise...sure die...lol

Now left with wine and beverage..erm...my group somewhat not meeting till next week..I just hope we can finish on time though...

Oh ya...service...the more practical kind of project..nothing to rush but is the 'rush' on the day itself...I just hope I can make myself clear though...

Was suppose to be host for toptable but dunno why Maxx change me to steward...of course I was very upset..i like being a host but ended up being a steward...not that I mind but still.... I know that he gt his own reasons, email stating that fm Mr Sim comment, but still...i still need to know the exact reason(s)...that way..at least I can agree and accept....haiz...damn sad...but thats life...c'est la vie:)

Just chose my elective subs..first is gaming then e-business for h and t...no way I will be taking business calculs...i sure die....barely pass my e-maths and taking a sub that is almost like a-maths? must be kidding...lol

LOL, totally delete off the poem..erm..I dunno why though...feel so werid for it to hang up there..felt like waiting for trouble to come like that...so...if u happen to read before 27 Jan 11am but somewhat get it and before 3pm 26 Jan..the full storyXD

In short, the poem is about confused feelings...ya...I guess...

But still, I find myself opening up..as in...just live my life and accept whatever that comes to my way..well...not anything but I will see how...la...lol

Lol, I take so long in writing the poem that I forgot what I want to continue to talk about..hmm..oh ya, happy stuffs within my family...my 2nd aunt finally ROM, though the actual wedding may be quite far..but still...I admit I still not used to the idea for having a uncle-in-law...erm...dunno y la..lol

Btw, Admirer...I still think ur somewhat a prank but still..thanks for lifting my mood up though..haha...thanks...

Anything esle? hmm...maybe....just maybe...I will update soon! Ja Mata!

2008-01-04T20:00:00.000+08:00

Happy 2008! lol, though is already 4 days into it already, lol

So many things happened since I last post, haiz, let's focus on the negative things first ba...

Failed my food opps(as mentioned), failed my wine and beverage(because I did not circle the MCQ), and failed my BESE project due to plargrism(whatever the sp is).

No use pointing fingers. Let make this a lesson learned in a hard way ba. I guess is pretty our group's fault for not checking each other parts and ensure no ctrl ctrl v take place. Just know that 20% is gone like that so is our effort. Now, each of us have to work harder for our BESE. My aim was used to be getting A, now, for me, I guess able to get a C+ is a bless already....

Haiz....quite a bad news for a new year right?

But nvm! Let this be the only first few days and let rest of the year be good! Now, I shall focus on the more positive side ba...

I passed my Jap Test! Finally! 61/100, hehe, even though not much improvement but at least passXD. I had sign up for E2 on a Friday class at 6.30 to 9.30. 日本語尾弁居尾するんです！着如帯、二月一日、六時範囲ーくじ範囲！私輪がんべってです！(I am going to study Japanese! Friday, 1st Feb, 6-30 to 9-30. I am going to work hard!)

Hehe, just using simple Jap to explain when is my timing etc. For those who understand Jap, can point out to me if I go wrong anywhere? Thanks!

And one more Japanese related....I am hired! By Re S group of restaurant to work at one of their Japanese restaurant! I will be attach to Ichiban Boshi at Esplande Mall from 18 March onwardsXD. Wish me luck there!

Lol, so just focus on the positive sideXD. And of course, New Year countdown! First time never go home at night(opps, hehe). Reach home about 8 am after countdown. The fireworks really beautiful from Marina Bay, got to watch it first handXD. Make a wish there too! Its a secretXP

Hmm, anything esle? for now, I think I just mention whatever my brain is telling me to doXD...so...expect more updates(liar, haha), soon, hopefully? hehe

Once again,
Happy New Year everyone!
And oh ya, Mickey Mouse? Welcome to the new lunar year soon! Hehe

2007-12-15T01:14:00.000+08:00

Here I am again! This time, may be slightly longer post, lol..hmm..where should I start?

Last week of school perhaps? Basically, was Captain last week...haiz, got to be top table one of the bad captain ever, went blur and cluless of what i do..in short, lose control of the stationa nd hence, well, kind of frustrating at times. But I am very lucky to have Sarah to help me as well as others such as Peggie, Hui Ying, Vivian and Hui Ting to help me. Otherwise I think I will just...drown...

BESE presentation. Went rather okay...saw how I was during presentation and wanted to laugh..lol...and yes speaking of BESE..

Yes, this is how I 'look' like at my formal business shot. If you are wondering why I had such a 'flawless' skin, that is because it was edit in photoshot...and not so me actually..hmm. Comments:

"You look like those rather sly businesswomen(ha...ha)"----My dad

"Aiyo, you look so plastic, not nice at all"---My youngest aunt

"You look like going to sleep!"---My comment, (lo)

So..the above photo will be send as part of the resume, lol, I guess they will be surprise that photo and actual person is quite...different..lol

Ok, lets talk about this week.

I failed my F&B test! SOB, ok, I derseve it for not doing 30 marks question because I miss out..argh! And also, my jap..sob..have to retest again...haiz...

Accounting test? Will be nice if I can pass well, haha, oh well...see how ba...

Watch Alvin and the chipmunks with Cassan and Yeongli, my two younger cousins with the former my godsis as well..lol..some photos taken after the movie...

The Tan'sfamily cousins!(ok...left my bro who is Nsing....)

Ok..I look super mature when taking photo with them la. This is a typical example for a late teen and a fresh out of childhood teen..haha. We all look alike ya? lol

And of course...a spin at goddad's lorry!

Yup, the image is 'spining' also, lol And Yeongli look a bit retarted with his big face there...lol

The lorry stop at traffic light, hence..clearer...lol

And we spin again! Look at the hair! lol

Oh..Yeongli..where are you? lol..lost in the darkness..haha

Was super high at the lorry ride. bit of singing here and there and spooky stories..lol

Lets go for a spin again! haha

Thats all for the last 2 weeks! Next week, oh well...looks bleak to me..somewhat..hope my luck will be better:)

Will I ever to get an answer from you? I guess not

Should I go for my heart or my head...

To tell you straight

That I actually...oh well...

2007-12-11T23:14:00.000+08:00

Listen to the blowing wind.
It had something to tell you.
Secrets that people told them out of whim
Or even some secrets involving you.

Swinging at the swing,
Push by the midnight wind
I listen to secrets that the wind told me while I swing,
And the feeling of knowing is like intoxicated by wine.

Mixed feelings about the secrets I heard
I reflect how is like to know all secrets but could not tell
For saying it, people will get hurt
So, in the end, I decide to forget, rather than dwell

When I swing at midnight,
All secrets are thrown to the wind
And let the wind carry through the night
As it find someone esle to listen to its whim.

So, next time, listen carefully to the blowing wind
For it may contain some secrets you may want to know,
But please do not get hurt from the secrets you heard from the wind,
Since you are willing to listen to the wind, knowing the possible results.
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Hmm, I will say that this is a rather 'weak' poem in a sense that...it does not make sense..haha. And the last paragraph is sort of a struggle to write...lol
Will blog more tmr...if possible...haha about my past week going on. Not so smooth...I should say..haiz..oh well
Thats life, take it, lol

2007-12-05T01:44:00.002+08:00

Night after night
With the stars blinking by,
I waited for my knight
To cross by

Thousand and one nights
Tears collected in my heart
Still, there is no knight.
Only a person with a hard hearted heart

Playing around with my mind,
Trying to make me believe
That you could be mine,
Only to turn up as a make believed.

Tears of thousand and one night,
Came pouring down like rain
Non-stop for the whole night
Till the tears of blood started to rain

With a cold emotionless eyes
Staring at the starless night
The night wind blast me with coldness like ice
Mocking me for having a heartless knight

Now I should let myself go
To somewhere where there is no pain
And perhaps someone who appreicate me so
And let my world be full of colourful paint

But now, my heart has no more love for the knight
But endless hatred for him,
For a thousand and one night
Goodbye then, my him...
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Okok, the above poem have NOTHING to do with my personal life.....ok....I admit...just abit...but the 'tears', 'blood', 'hatred' and rejection theme is not true, I just imagine it...somewhat.... Just something that came up while I listen to yi qian ling yi ye.
And 'ADMIRER'. thank you for likeing my blog and poem though I am curious to know who you really are. And Fanny, thanks too:)
Will update once I survive this week.
Captain + project deadline this week=80% dead me
Ja ne! (Tag bot the poem or gerenally anything if you guys are here reading:), need some feedback actually, esp bot the poem..lol)

2007-12-02T00:32:00.000+08:00

All right, almost 2 weeks since I updated..for real. Seriously, I wonder who will read my blog, lol, with boring staffs and language that I think I myself can understand only..lol

Ok..service. I play host for first week, kinda a bit ez job compared to the rest but u have to hold the phone at all times and ans some rather...interesting calls. And also, have to turn away guests that is dressed incorrectly. believe me, it is a hard thing to do..

Oh well, second week, stewarding, man..thas was real boring for the first hour, nothing much to do/wash. But actually, compared to outside, it is pretty slack, lol.

And annoncing my death...next wed and fri. I am captain! Argh! Have to take customers order, learn how to set tables, fire orders etc. worse still, I am captain on the week they have ala carte! I am sooooo going to died! X_X Oh well, at most hand over to the gallow at the end of each day, though the ez way out I guess is skip...but...have to experience first..dad right, died in sch better than die outside..it is a unforgiving world out there...

Jap retest...57/100! still failed! by 3 marks! what the heck! have to retest again! argh..oh well, same paper, this time, I know what to expect and study harder...haiz..i think i am digging my own grave...

Oh and, I am pretty slack this sem, I dunno why, dun feel like doing so much things now..though I will have to chiong..no matter what..haha..

What esle..oh yes..watch Enchanted with Wanting, JD and his friend..I can only say...I went 0_o all the way...lol

What esle...hmm...what esle should I ramble on?

Oh well, how is it like to like someone for quite long but nvr got to know his intention? very annoying, especially he tend to give false hope every now and then! argh! I really wanna ask but I hold back, afraid of losing the friendship. But I seriously want to know, so that I can give up and move on, if he like me not. Though if(but nearly impossible) he like me. it doesn't means have to go into relationship, I can wait..afterall, I had waited for so long, few years is nothing, and it also a test to see how strong is the like..oh well..

Ok then..end of rambling. Pls show signs, however that ppl are reading my blog *hinthint* otherwise this blog may die off..lol

2007-11-19T23:53:00.000+08:00

Locking my heart away,
from the scream and cries,
that is outside of my locked heart.

I became emotionless
but nevertheless,
the screams and cries continue
to cause a crack at the door.

The screams and cries,
finally seep through the crack
Though little,
it is enough to make me crack.

But still, the door remain locked tight,
as I repair the crack every night
So that I could be,
the way I want to be,
and others to see

The smiles, joke and laughter I made,
It is not fake,it is from within my heart,
Thats because, I locked all my sadness away,
refuse to think about it and smile,
day by day

Contradiction after contradiction,
I keep my sadness in me,
and give away my happiness,
leaving the sadness to haunt me,
night by night.

So now, how I wish, someone
will have the key to my locked heart
unlocked it. and help me, take away all my sadness.
Let me cry out all at once,
then slowly, give me happiness to keep in my heart.

But for now, before that someone will come,
I will continue to lock away my sadness
give away my happiness.
Till the day, I finally crack totally,
Finally...no more...
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So hows was it? Hmm..ok i think. Got lots of things I wish to blog about...maybe next time ba. And now, nursing my badly cracked lips, on a 2 days MC..kinda first time since I entered poly..oh well. Still thinking if going to school tmr even I on MC..haiz. Maybe stay at home to study? Then wed...haiz. I am the host for top table. Hopefully, I will not screw up like guiing wrong tableetcetc...haiz..

Ja ne

2007-11-09T19:02:00.000+08:00

Hmm..today was my pro test part 1. Haiz, didn't went that well. I think I pass, but is the more of the border line de...oh well, can pass can liao..lol.

Section 1, set table of 4. Alightment was like waaayyy off, lol. But my timing is 2min46secs..so I can confirm I got 5.5/10 for this station. Not that bad...I guess...hehe

Section 2, clear table. Ahh! I so blur go take tray and cleat glasses first! WRONG! wasted time on that. haiz, then timing I think is either 1 or 0 mark..since Ms Mark wasn't really that clear on how long I took...lol. Then overall..let me see, least will be 13/20, at most 16/20(obviously I prefer the latter..lol)

Section 3, serve the table. Ok, I think I serve very fast in terms of the mocktails but way slowfor the main course because I scare of the hot plates..haiz...anyway..timing is 3 min 40 secs..haiz...slow..only 0.5 marks..oh well..,let see for this section..I think..least I will get is 6/10, most 6.5/10

So overall, the least I can get is 24.5 to at most 28/40(of course, again, the latter is always preferred...lol)..oh well. 10% of this week. Now, next week, the other 10%..the more diffcult one, I should say...haiz..hope I can score too..

Wish me luckXD

See ya all!

2007-11-07T22:15:00.000+08:00

Well, quite a time had past since I started school eh? So many things to say, that is hard to express them in words. Maybe I will try to, but dun blame me if you cant understand at all...lol

Let's see, Service Practium, a rather fun but very stress subject, speaking of which, I am having part 1 of the pro test this Fri..lol. For sure, I am going to forgone the marks for alightment, something I NEVER get it right, so..just chiong lor...at least get 4 marks instead of lose potenially more marks..lol. I hope I can survive this Fri test and next week's one. LOL

Speaking of which, another test, Jap..I FAILED! Ok, I kinda serve myself right. I mean..study for only 1 hr and u expect urself to pass, especially when the passing rate is 60%..I gotta dream on..lol..oh btw..I got 42%..erm..actually, slightly better than I thought la..but I will try again!

What esle, I realise that I am a introvert extrovert? Huh u wonder. Basically, I am a introvert, prefer not to talk unless is the topic of my interest? Only when someone starts to talk to me then I will go into the extrovert mode. Basically, I will be a extrovert if I feel that people is accepting me...however, once I feel rejected, out or somehow feel out of place, I will turn into a introvert...I think every1 see it now. I donno why, but I think inside of me is trying to find some answer that I dunno what is the question in the first place that makes me quite alone. But of course, as stated above, once I feel that they dun mind me, I will be like last time. In fact, with my own cca group, I am rather 'loud' in a sense...lol..maybe I feel more at ease at them ba...

But then seriously, I dunno whats wrong with me nowadays, but dun worry, I wun be eating ppl out and I am pretty much the same old me ba..I guess..just look, sound and feel like anti-socialing(emo) that gives the impression that I think people may not want to come near me ba...I dunno..haiz...PR is such a complex matter...

Hmm..what esle? Oh well, I guess next time ba..

Seeya!

2007-10-28T21:25:00.000+08:00

School started a week ago. Overall experience? Oh well, much better than I thought though.

Service is not that bad as I think it will be...for now. Now have to practice carrying heavy plates and stuffs..lol. But somehow, I am having funXD

Oh ya, yesterday horror event. Can say is a sucessful, but can be better:)
Thanks to all for help!

What esle? Hmm..i dunno..maybe next day ba..hmm

seeya!

2007-10-18T22:10:00.000+08:00

Yahoo! Here I come again!

Today, did not go to work because...
Getting my school timetable(and announce that Wed and Fri will be hell day) and settle all the admin stuff, which actually took me 3 hr plus, surprising..lol

And finally, my mail from Japan arrived via EMS, ard 1230, according to my dad..lol. *hug the book* Hehe..my precious..

Ok, after settleing all admin stuff, went to window shopping(as well as looking out for face paint). Went to Jurong Point, West Mall, Lot 1 and Bukit Panjang. And ya, took the LRT for the 2nd time! The experience taking LRT is fun, compared to MRT, because of the many slopes it have..in short..fun..lol

Ok, sth make my mum mad yesterday. Apparently, a boy ard my age ask her for donation, she donate $2, but u know what he said?
"You got $10 in your wallet, y not donate $10"
Ok, u can ask ppl to donate but u un request how much they want to donate, besides, is wrong to peek at ppl's wallet! Man, my mum is so mad bot it that she could not stop complaining. of course, she didn't donate the $10, she told the boy off and walk off.

Oh well..all kinds of ppl do exist anyway, now where am I. Ok, school offically starts next mon 11am sharp, lecture. How excited am I? from the scale of 1-10, I will say...6. lol

Ok, thats all
Ciao!

2007-10-17T01:33:00.000+08:00

I guess I will blog random stuffs today..hmm

Holiday coming to an end! Next week starts school:( I drag service practicum the most..hope I can survive through..lol

And also means..this will be the last week I will work in Delfi, working there this vaction help me to learn a little bit of accounting, and I can conclude that it IS a tiring job to do..haha. I hope my timetable, somehow but I dun really hope, can help me find time to go back to Delfi to work..lol

Yay, bough my first item in Ebay usig my own debit card...lol. Actually, I bough quite a few before but always use brother Ken's debit card to help me pay first..haha, really pei seh, and now I can buy it on my own...erm..I think I should start to work double hard now..lol

Oh ya, my first somesort of major event at JCG. Horror Night! Movie screening, games and nightwalk, all the materials, manpower and logictisc wise I have to get it done. Tiring, but I am having fun and learn a bit on event planning..lol

And yes, today, peg ask me..do I still like him? My ans to her is, yes, I still do but not so much in the past, u can say time really can so call fade things if nothing done to it. And at the same time, I more or less told her, there is this guy, I now like. No..should I say, since secondary school? But I keep surpassing the feeling down cause I know is impossible, so I just ignore it. But a incident few months back unwilling unlock this lock door of feeling. Is a long story, and yes, I am trying to lock back. Since I can do it in the past, I dun see y I cant now.

The guy peg talk about, he reallly distract me from him for quite a long time, simply because he envoke a feeling that I never know I have(now, I am wondering if there is a term for this feeling). In fact. both envoke totally different feelings,
one- shyness, heart beat dumps faster even if he is long gone, feeling happy for just looking or even talking to him.
the other-sense of ease, sense of security, love to talk to him...will want to do anything to makes him happy...sth like BFF.
But the latter is slightly stronger feeling because I still have contact with him but none for the former(tooshyto talkla).

So therefore, I confess, that I actually some sort of like 2 guys. Is it wrong to do so? i dunno..i feel so guilty about it actually that I only admit one only(whichever feeling seems stronger) . But wanting, one of my best friends, told me it isn't wrong but still...haiz. Of course, no doubt, some ppl said this is called hua xin but there seems no option for me..at least..for now

What is love, what is like? I cant tell the difference. Thats y I still cant tell, which i like, which I love. Is so damn confusing that I now throw it aside(erm..somehow).

Now concentrating of other things really distract me from all these things call love. But from the way I keep things to myself, I forsee myself to be single this life(not that I mind..haha)..but, one can dream right? lol

2007-10-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

I know it sound pretty weird, especially when comes to a 18 yr old like me, but I want to, u know, jolt it dwn in case I forgot...if ever happen, that is. But I think will be at least 6 yrs b4 it could happen eh? lol

银月(Silver moon)
银梦(Silver dream)

I like these 2 name, sound mystic(at least to me).

Wonder what these 2 names for? Obvious right? If u cant tell..then...too bad:P

Just for reference only..hehe

2007-10-08T22:10:00.000+08:00

Normally, I wun post this kind of thing. Is personally and I really dun want to embrass ppl or whatever sort, but somehow, this had gone too far!

"Your my sunshine and rainbow after the rain"

Obviously, come from the same person even though come from 2 diff person. Ok..I know this is just a joke and I just causally brush it aside. But to play it twice? Pls....

Once is okay, but everything have a limit....

YOU HAVE GONE TOO FAR IN PLAYING SUCH JOKE!!!

Love is nt sth to be joke ard! U dun say 'I love you' to any girls just like that. I don't like it...give me such a creep.

Pls, stop it. I know u wanna have some fun and being a guy, I cant blame it. But u have just overstep it when u send this nonsense smses.

Don't play the 'I love you' joke on me pls, I just don't like it...

2007-10-06T22:49:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18th Birthday to me!!!

Thanks to....:

Kai Ting! The first one who wish me happy birthday! Give me gifts and having breakfast with me at Mac!

My jap culture gang, Dominic for sending me sms..lol. Agnes, for giving me gift and accompany me for Jap lunch along with Shoan(who send me friendster comment:)), Yuki and Wei Yen. Thanks for having lunch with me on my big day!

My cousin, Cassandra and yeongli for sending me sms and *gas* potential gifts ..lol

Those who sent me frienster comment! Thanks so much!
Desmond, Fanny, Wanting, PeiQin, Cass, Kai Ting and Rei!

Thanks so much!

Serene and Hong Jie via MSN Chat! And the latter for a little bit special for wishing me..haha..thanks so much!

Love ya all! Muuack!!!

2007-09-20T22:25:00.000+08:00

22 years ago, this day, 20 September, a guy is born..and this guy is none other than my big brother! Happy Birthday!

Bough him a 2litre water bottle and a small cake, lol.

What esle, oh ya, even though he drove me to the edge with his bochap attitude sometimes..he still my older brother...and I only have one in this lifetime. So ya, happy birthday bro, may u have a good life ahead!

Best wishes:)

2007-09-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

Someone once said:
"Let go of the past. Embrace the Present. Look towards the future"

Well, actual fact: Almost everything in this world is easier said than done.

Though, I wish time would stand still, like what Rinoa from FF8 had said,
"I don't want the future. I just want the time to stand still and be with you forever.(Not the exact some phases but something like that)"

Ok, not that I want to be with someone forever now. Gerenally, every thing goes and part. Best of friends may be total stranger the next few years. Everything I am with my good friends, how I wish time will stand still and let it be forever, but I know, nothing is forever. All these will become memories. On a good note, at least you have spend good time with them. Even when years past, relationship may not be close anymore but at least the impression is still there.

Thats why, when I look at friends who used to be closed, now so distant, how I wish we would like in the past, but again, past is past, it will never get back. Friendship is something that it will take a lot of time and effort to maintain. It is not about 'you' is about all of 'us'..of course, your personality also matters...people change everyday...

Lol, this turn up to be one of my many so called philospohy of life that is exclusive what I think only, lol, though others around me have influence me one way or the other..

And to 'you', if you happen to read, well, yes, I kind of referring to you. U know, is sad to know that you have forgotten so many things. Those are my good memories of you. Haiz, oh well, i guess what matter is the present ba...

Letting go of the past? I think I am starting to, but of course, with all the good memories engraved in my heart, unless I got into an accident that I forgot everything..lol

2007-09-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

Me with Agnes. Too bad I cant take photo with her wearing the high school uniform too..lol. And also, a high time for me to really get my weight down..lol

lol, me in the Waseda Shibuya Senior High School Uniform..hehe

Went to the Jap high sch festival..quite fun actually, too bad cannot stay long because got work at Suntec..haha.

Working with Chef Alfred kinda stress...he got many things organise that I am scare that I'll screw up. Well, lucky he's quite nice actually..haha

First Jap class! Ok, I admit a boring at first since I know some of the expression but it pick up soon! lol, now got to work hard in the writingXD

Seeya

2007-09-03T01:45:00.000+08:00

lalala. nothing much to blog about...really..oh well

Just that got work at Delfi for 3 days last week...then on sat, went shopping at Bugis and Vivocity with Cassandra. lol

Saw this 6 months old Keeshons..so cute..but is on sale, poor thing that no one wants it. haiz, if I have the money and time....

Anyway, decide to sign up for Jap class over at Orchard de..hmm..hopefully, I can really go on with it..hehe

thats all for now...tee hee! bb

2007-08-28T23:36:00.000+08:00

I will not cry
Because I am strong inside
I will not cry
Because it is just nothing to me

I will not cry
Even if it hurts my heart
I will not cry
Because I am used to it

I will not cry
Because it will be just a waste of time
I will not cry
Because it will show my weakness

If I would not cry
Then why is the sob sound coming out from my voice
And my cheek is wet with the river of tears from my eyes?

Because...because
It just hurts so much that the melody of sorrow wants to sing its song
Till is driven out and slowly flow back in
Where it can wait to sing its melody of sorrow once more...

This rather short 'poem' is inspired by Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne, from the POV of the heroine, Maron/Jeanne:)

2007-08-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

Weekend again. This past week was kinda..boring I guess..haha. But still, got to do some interesting stuffs like:

Going to JB on mon and wed

getting a bag from there

bough the entire kamikaze kaitou jeanne manga!(Love it:))

Watch the entire kamikaze kaiou jeanne anime:)

Going to natsu matsuri on sat

BBQ at Sembawang Park on sun

Lol, theres what I bascially did this week. Totally love the new anime/manga I am watching and reading now. Maron and Chiaki(Jeanne and Sinbad) are sooo cute together! lol..kind of help me pass my time quickly..lol

Went to help up in natsu matsuri(Japan summer festival)on sat..help to set up tables and after that. I was in the yukata! lol, first time wearing it and kinda feel tight in the middle..lol..but is fun watching all the stalls and how it feel like in an Japanese event. I feel like in mini Japan yesterday..haha. Going in nxt year for sure XD

Me in yukata! Kinda blur..but oh well..should have bough camera in the first place!

Have bbq at sembawang park today with suntec friends..lol..have some fun there and eat till full..lol

Going back to work on Tues at Jurong..lol..hope to have a nice week ahead!

seeya!

2007-08-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

The Cold Kitchen chefs with Chef H..without wearing our chef's uniform..lol

lol, one is never enough..hehe. Chef Ken with Michelle, Ting Ting and Leonice:)

Chef Ken and Ting Ting!

Me and Chef Ken!

Me and Chef H(Tall isn't he? lol)

Me and Chef Marc!
Thats all I have for the movie now with the 3 CIA Chefs. Going to miss them dearly and thank you for imparting your knowledge to us! Hope to see you guys again next year and have a safe flight journey tmr!:)

2007-08-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

Pastry area..part2

Baking area, 7 days of non stop dough making

Pastry area, 7 days of erm, for me, stock taking

This is where my 1st 3 weeks starts right after the 3 weeks at skills deveoplement:)

Just some images of where we usually get our ingredients. The meat&veg chillers and a freezer. Btw, the freezer is at least -16degree...*cold*

My last 2 weeks were spent here:) The Cold Kitchen. Sandwich, salads and more! lol

Lol, the pretty much saying everything:)

Me and Chef Phua!

me and Chef Joyce:)

the 2 local female chefs:) Chef Joyce(left) and Chef Phua(right)

2007-08-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

The skills kitchen:) Where I spen my first 3 weeks at skills development and my 2nd last kitchen of hot production kitchen:)

The family meal room:) Where we literally have our tasting here as well as lectures sometimes too:) And Yee Liang just happen to be there..lol

The infamous stewarding area:) With Peggie playing around and Sarah actually working hard cleaning up...lol

Girls from both skills kitchen:) Pei Xin, TingTing, Angie, Rou Wen and Hui Ying. The extra fingers belongs to Kevin:/..lol

Me and Ting Ting!XD

3 roses of Cold kitchen:) Pei Xin, Ting Ting and Michelle

Two of the roses of Cold Kitchen:) Pei Xin and Ting Ting:)

Everyday attendance awardXD

Random shots of Stanley and JiaLoon at the Bucher Room..lol

More pics coming up!

2007-08-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day of CP. The day I waited for but somehow, I feel very sad having to know that this will be the last day. No more waking up at 5 daily, no more trying to keep me hair messy, no more trying to get my uniform day and tidy the next day. It had been 4 months and somehow, I know I am going to miss it...

Today did a major cleanup in the kitchen and done the baking and pastry test. Also, got a mini gifts from Ms Wilson for attending class every day, along with 4 other friends:) Took some pics around the campus and us too:) Really miss stepping into the kitchen again...

Just watch the movie with the CCM cohort and the 3 CIA chefs, Chef Joyce, Ms Wilson and Mr Tan. It was a very funny show indeed..haha

After the show, it was rather touching and a few tearful goodbye. Had been holding back my tears when the CIA chefs bidding us farewell. It was indeed a heartwarming moment. I really enjoy the time spending with them. Hope to see them next year when the CCM juniors step into the kitche:)

Everything have finally come to an end. I believe all of us have both good and bad memories here. And now, lets look forward for a rather challenging subject: Service. :/

And next post, all the pics(hopefully) taken today:)

2007-08-11T09:26:00.000+08:00

Yahoo! One more week=5 more days before the end of the culinary practical! Well, I admit I will miss the whole experience, in fact, it have been a wonderful experience so far, learning new receipes and stuff. But still, holiday is almost here seems nice..lol

And next sem is service! Haiz, I think will be more stress than culinary even though only twice a week...

Next week tues and wed will be the offical opening! Hmm, I am invoved in cooking the leek and potato cold soup...I hope will be tasty enough...otherwise...

Oh ya, suddenly got inspired, Heres a poem, will explain afterwards..lol:

Every string sew for you

Every pain bear for you

Tears cried silently for you

But all you see is my smile for you

The sealed pounch is slowly opening by you

By your words and action, everything done by you

Even though I tried to find others, the hope had been dashed by you

However, I am also glad because hope is also given by you

Yet, your words,have yet again, dashed this hope

So now, I have to seal back the bleeding pounch

While smiling bravely in front of you.

Ok, end of this sound but not really poem. Haha. Actually, maybe I will explain more in the future, that somehow, deep inside my heart, there is always this one person there that I had to seal it up tightly, though my feelings for the others is really real. Oh well, nxt week then I explain ba..promised:)

Seeya!

2007-08-05T00:31:00.000+08:00

Wow, just came back from vivo with my group of good friends;wanting, michelle and jd. haha, had quite a fun walking around and sit by the pond there talking and then take 963 home..lol..ZZZ

Lost my ezlink card!!! Cant believe it!!! I also dunno y it just dropped. Haiz, now using my mom's ez link card. Now no more concession for me till my new card is ready...haiz..:(

Oh ya, 2 more weeks to go! Will miss the hot kitchen a lot. Chef Joyce is very nice and I like the environment in the hot kitchen..haha, really have fun learning there:)

Just wish to dig a hole for me now. I cant believe they shouted or rather, declared very loudly on u know what day...it was so...embrassing. I think he heard it already..haiz. dunno what to do now, think just let it be ba...haiz

Oh well, still got to live right? lol. Live for urself and someones who love and like u. why feel unhappy for those who are nt, oh well, actually, trying to anyway...

Live happily!

Seeya!

2007-07-29T19:43:00.000+08:00

As usual..3 weeks more! well..time really flew eh? lol

The pace in skills hot is not as rush in the past, better I guess. Most of the time is pretty slack..for some reasons..haha

Anyway, Chef Joyce said I was slow, shes right actually, I am pretty slow..just dunno why..always like to go blur blur..lol...I am trying to improve..hopefully..but somehow, I just dunno how to start. U can say, I am pretty clueless. So I somehow hide in stewarding..ended up being sort of 'ban' from there..lol

But tmr I hope I can learn more:) Pilal rice, here I come:)

Hmm, and ya, I was pick to give out invition to guests. I am attach to Ms Choi and give invitation to the management within TP..haha, while some of my friends will be attach with one HTM student and a lecturer to go out..hmm..I guess I prefer to stay in:)

Oh yes, the heartpounding sensation is still there. In fact, I realise that my heart cant stop pounding for quite a long time even after he left..I dunno y...just hope that it will stop one day....

Hmm..till next week entry then!:)

2007-07-21T23:26:00.000+08:00

Yo! 5 weeks down and 4 more to go! Next week will be at the hot kitchen, where I heard rather relax compare to the other kitchens...hmm...I shall see...

Hmm, where I should start? This week western kitchen not so bad after all, haha. I was the sous chef on the last day, but nothing major happen ba, abit slow I guess, lol. On Monday and Tuesday I was doing the duck confit, then wed and thurs do some veggy cutting stuff..lol

This week quite fun ba after all. lol.

Oh ya, today went to Chango new T3 for testing, quite fun actually, with fake passport and everything. Of course, we depart to 'Bejing' and came back..fast. lol. Then instead of going back to TP, I went to T2 instead to take 858 home, much easier..lol...

And today, some of them realise what is my weakness liao, I mean, I kinda quite easily pei seh, so when they call that person name, I will starts to freak out..after all, walls have ears, man...so embrassing but I had fun, I mean, you know, getting tease every now and then is good. Besides....contine this sentence yourself:P

Anyway, reflection of the week, as long as I do things with conscience, I simply need not to care what people really think. I mean, is hard to change views on u once it is set. I still believe through actions(good or bad) people will slowly change their view on u. I am not good with words, I tend to say the wrong thing. And I am not exactly a people's person many people think I may.

I will not remember the wrong people do to me, the misgiving, the bad talk or whatsoever. I shall remember the good thing. I will do my best to treat everyone the same. I will give kindess but whether they return, dun return or even backstab, I shall remain with a clear conscience, after all, whats the use of remember those bad things? It will remains in your heart and cause you sickness and in the end, you gain nothing as well.

I am after all. still human, so, it may not be ez but I will try. I am not perfect, people will still dislike me no matter how hard I try but as long as I live with a clear conscience, I know somewhere out there, there will be some1 who understand me.

Reading and watching guan yin's words has enlighten me quite a bit. I may not get the grasp the deep meaning in my life, but one thing I know, hatred will bring no happiness in your life, so, I shall start to begin to let go slowly, and take every challenges in life.

Just some insights of my view of life:)

So, I shall remain happy, look at the good side and just smile my way through in life.:))

Till next week:)

2007-07-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

I am thinking, since my skin and song this time is so Squinoa-ish(hehe), this is a poem I wrote quite sometime ago, about them, via Rinoa'sPov..

Your eyes
Is as blue as the sky
But the gaze
Is as cold like an ice
Will you ever know?
My passion for you
Is trying to melt the ice in you
My heart is aching
Wanting a bit of love from you
When will you ever know?
That I will never give up on you.
Fire melts the ices
My passion will melt your ice
So that you will never look at me
With your cold gaze eyes.
But with love and passion
Like mine for you

The End

Just some random poem post, may do more in the future..hehe, enjoy!

2007-07-14T22:38:00.000+08:00

Okay..weekend again! Loving it! One week down again and 5 weeks more to go! lol. I was in Western Kitchen this week, okay, lots of order all right, abit went confused but overall, its okay:)

Did cold kitchen for the first 3 days then seafood, comparing to the meat section, my seafood cannot compared to them, is like, my order at most one shot is 4 but theirs is 7..ya, very bz. Next week, my turn to be the meat and veg chef before the last day as the sou chef...argh! lol

Been rather distant to myself these past few days, is either I think too much or something esle but I know, things has change a lot. I will just prefer to remain quiet about it, oh well, time just goes like that.

Deadline for CP project next tuesdays! Shortbread cookies! Argh! Haven done anything much yet, like, waiting till the last min to chiong..lol...ya, pure lazy. But once thats over, is really till the baking and pastry test that I need to work extra hard le...lol

Today sub com meeting went well. Funny thing is, when I decided to postpone my event, people finally sign up, I was like.."..." If they sign up earlier, maybe I would not postpone it. Now, have to write email to them I am postponing it. This is the second and last time I shall do it, haiz. But nevertheless, today discussion on how to advertise went rather well and I hope more people will sign up*pray hard*lol

I tried hard to ignore it but the heartpounding sensation is still there. Stop it will it, I hate the fact I still feel this way.

Maybe you guys notice but my last week post was not up due to someunknown reasons, I hope today will be up! Otherwise someone will complain its empty:P

Hehe, next week is both my cousin and godsis bday! Happy 14 Bday..lol, now, the family only left me and my bro this year bday haven over yet..hehe....waiting my 18 bday to pass. U know, ppl say, time seems to speed up once you hit 18, esp girls..dunno y but I will like to find out for myselfXD.

Okay, till the next week post then!

2007-07-07T21:19:00.000+08:00

Hi! It is weekend again and it means one week down, 6 more to go! Nest up, Western kitchen!

OK, this past week, I had beem cooking chicken rice, branyi rice and tumeric cabbage...lol. Cook till I guess I no need to refer to receipe liao..lol..

Rather slack actually, maybe due to the fact that ppl are ordering more of western menu? lol, thats where I will be next week, Haiz, war time for me..lol.

Chef Derrick quite nice actually, very patient and well, funny at times('I'm the man)..lol, my time in Asian kitchen is rather much ez than baking and pastry but oh well, I love both kitchens chefs nevertheless..hehe

So today, met my new sub com members..wow, I then realise that most of the are from design but different courses..lol, gd choice? bd choice? All will be reveal in the future..lol

So thats all? oh well, tmr working(finally!) and hopefully, my 2 weeks in western kitchen will be fun:)

2007-06-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

Its finally weekend!!! Yahoo!!! Wow, 7 more weeks to go b4 I can enjoy myself. Hmm, but frankly speaking, in a flash of a moment, slightly more than half of the sem is gone..time flies ya? lol. Anyway, lets see what I got to say...:

This week Asian Kitchen(1 more week to go). Was preparing mostly Tom Yam soup, nothing but spicy and sour...not exactly my type..oh well, I just cooked ba, lol. Not so much order for the Asain Kitchen, mainly for the Western Kitchen, like, every 10 orders, 7 are for western..lol. So Western Kitchen is like having war every day..hehe. But dun say too early, I will be in Western kitchen after next week...oh well.

Hmm, what esle? Oh ya, hightlight and give my hair a treatment! Now the colour of my hair more noticable than b4..hehe, I like it. lol.

For now, have to think who to get in for my A&E sub com, kinda of a headache. I think after that I need to set ground rules for them to follow and of course, do some origami event stuff..haiz. Still have to complete my basic and CP projects too:(

But I believe everything will be over soon! Loving it! Hehe, till the nexr post!

I dun want to be just pther girl. I wish to be ur type of girl. But what type of girl u want? Haiz, just forgot about it Jacyln, just forget, u will get over it soon!:)

2007-06-17T01:14:00.000+08:00

Hiya again!

This may be one of my shorter post..hmm...by the way, did I mention that I actually did not do my hair yesterday? lol, because Louis off that day:(, however, the money that I change to RM are now being kept somewhere for the purpose of my hair, so..ya, no change:P

Anyway, today went out with Cassandra! Lol, long time never see her and she seems taller again! lol. have a nice chat with her and I promise her to get her a belt for her bd! In like, a months time? lol...hehe

What esle, hmm..oh ya, I spent quite some money on buying shows today. Finally, I get my hand on 2000 Love! Lovely bittersweet story, I love the piano music, so sweet and sad and the same time...haiz...I am hopeless romantic..LOL. Also, bough Sailormoon Live action(can u believe that!) DVD and SailormoonSuperS part 1..lol, I think I am slowly gg back to the good old days where I was totally crazy about Sailormoon! LOL, like..hmm...10 years ago? lol

Thats all for now? Any more stuffs to say? Hmm..maybe next time ba...

Seeya!

2007-06-15T20:27:00.000+08:00

ALOHA!

I think my blog is starting to become dust..heez, and so, I change a new skin again! Ok..I know is still the same type of theme but I like it:P

Anyway, got sooo many wanna say, but like again, mind gone blank while trying to type here..haha. I will just blog random things here:p

Met Cindy and Xiaoxin! They are both sec 2, same as Cassandra and Yeongli..haha, quite concidence. They remind me a lot of Belinda and Melissa, Xiaoxin reminds me of Belinda and Cindy of Melissa, they are quite similar in lots of aspect. lols

Anyway, if you're wondering who they are, they are...*Ahem*...Hong Jie's online girlfriends..heez! I get to know them through Hong Jie and surprise, Cindy just live a school away from me..haha.

What esle? Oh ya, kitchen.haiz, after my 3 weeks skill, I was in Pastry and Bakery Kitchen. Learns lots of stuff from there. The chefs are wonderful though they may be very strict...esp Chef Marc..butut very funny also..haha

Now in Asian Kitchen..with chef Derrick and chef Ken, both seems nice so far...now still got 2 more weeks in there before going to Western Kitchen next. Haha

Ok, for now ,I will be trying too complete my business proposal and my project on shortbread cookies..haha. Hehe, for been working for the past 3 days but the money goes to my hair...lol..hightlighting and giving it treatment again..lol.

Hmm, anything esle? Oh ya, a lot of things had change. Both good and bad..lol..nt gg much into details about it...lol

OK then, anything that somehow u wanna know but I miss out blogging? Tag! Otherwise I may just leave it blank...as u know, I tend to just generalise my blog, nt exactly gg into one topic..lol

Seeya!

2007-05-02T21:50:00.000+08:00

LOL, it had been a looong time since I blog eh? something seems wrong with my blog, think is the code problem, i see if I could fix it later...

Anyway, I got so many things to blog about till I dunno where to start! Basically, my module for this sem will be 8-5 everyday! Sounds boring but somehow the day end quick, esp in the kitchen...lol

My cooking is just so-so, so is my knife skills. I strive to improve! For today, lots of potato involve, and I think I had eaten enough for a week or sth-_-....

Oh ya, haven talk about the freshie! They seems more into this course then my batch do...somehow, lol. My impression of them is that they are more hyper...while some...than us. Hope that it will continue!

Lots of things happen during these few weeks, few ups and downs but everything is well...lol

Haiz, haiz, as for me, I dunno what happen to me, I dunno how to sort out these two very complicated but different yet similar feelings. I feel so...argh! Nvm, I guess I just let things go by itself..lol Somehow, I am going to love thurs;)

So thats all? Wonder when I will update again..hmm, I try to every weekend to 'report' what i did during wkdays..lol

2007-04-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

OK, I admit ia ma kinda lazy to blog, so, I just copy and paste one of my friend's article here, his insight of 'happiness':

Happiness
A usual cliche question: What is happiness?

Though cliche, such a question won't fail to capture my observative mind. I don't know what some of the answers are, but i have heard of some like " Happy lorh.", "Following your dreams.", "When i get what i want." Well, i have thought long enough about this and this is my answer: "It is a measurement of how much sadness you have gone through." Go n define sad yourself, or else i will type till my fingers grow blisters n tumours.

Eh!??! How can happiness be sad? Calm down, read on..

I always say this: The opposite will not exist if its counterpart doesn't exist in the first place. Too chim? Here's an analogy. How would you define happiness if there is no sadness to oppose it? Imagine this: If everyday you are leading a so-called happy life, won't it actually be normal to lead such a "happy" life? You need sadness to show happiness in life. So, the more unhappy you are, the happier you will be when something great occurs to you.

Let's illustrate some examples. Supposed you want to get an MP3 (funny.. how come its this example again..), there r 3 ways you can get it. 1) your parents or whoever just give it to u. 2) Get it from your parents with strings attached. 3)Blast through the torturous life saving any penny you have to get one MP3 yourself. Assuming that sadness is equilivant to the degree of pain and suffering that you have gone through, can you now guess in which situation will you be happier when you finally get the MP3?
---Copyrighted by Tau Geh King

How much will u agree with this? As for me, I realise that is true that sometimes through sadness u know happiness. Without sadness, u cant know happiness, and vice versa. So, what I feel is, yes, all of us will be sad for lots of time within our lifetime, however, it is also this sadness that make us treasure our happiness more. So, smile:)

2007-04-09T22:33:00.000+08:00

Hmm, I come to blog again!
This week will be bz, mon to thurs confirm work.
However, still thinking bot Friday de...hmm, that depends whether or nt thurs de work finish or nt.
Then another bz week next week.
Mon-Uniform Collection cum knife collection cum SL Tea party...lol.
Tues-Perhaps work?
Wed-Kitchen Orientation.
Thurs-fri-Freshman Orientation! Business will win the war!
It wasn't suppose to be like this. Y am I crying, y am I sad, despite the fact I told myself is nothing...?
OK, thats all for today..quite short eh? lol

2007-04-06T03:12:00.000+08:00

Lol, maybe I should blog a bit about my SL camp dun I? Hehe, a major summary:

First day

Since me and peg somehow dun have a grp, each of us were allocated to a grp. She was in Taurus, same as Ruo Wen and I was in Canis[same as Caryn].Get to know a lot of wonderful ppl from there:) My FA is Daniel Goh. At first, I did not know that he's the president of BSG, really, I dunno bot that until somehow one of my grp mate mention to me and I was like O_0. Haha, a very good FA though he tend to go 'MIA' sometimes because he is very busy with the camp stuff but when hes there with us, we have funXD
Heres are my grp members:)

Kandis ,Syaza ,Caryn ,Charissa, Jacqueline ,Hinna, Denise, Lionel ,Yuen Cheng, Gunawan, Aaron ,Matthew, Lena ,Yasmin, KokSheng ,BangZhou .Jeff, Cheryl .Jeslyn andJoan

Have our very first type of team bonding game throughtout the sch with various 8 Stations. hehe, quite fun, esp the dark climbing under the table type..lol, then went to slp.

Day 2

Nth much actually, cept have ALP and nightwalk. The rain have dampen the mood somehow. Have very fun trying the flying fox and the jumping to one side to the another bence...haha, fun. Nightwalk nt as fun as I thought though..haha

Day 3

Kind of amazing style race ard Tampiness, feeling a bit tired but have lots of fun..lol. Then night performance, yahoo! We're the best! We even won the best team award:) And of course not forgetting our cheer that somehow make us kinda famous

Sinesinecossine3.14159alphagordolcp6.021023!(X3) LOL

Then went back hm after we exchange contacts.

Ok, here, I will like to admit that it is my fault that I went back home without telling Peg they all. My hp was flat after smsing back my friends and my mum calling me and talking to me. However, when Peg said I make new friends and forgot they all is it?, I am hurt, am I really that kind of person who forgot friends easily? Yes, I did make new friends but my bond with them isn't that strong with them compare to mine with hers. If she really thinks that I am like that, then I think I got nothing to say.

But yet, I still want to say I am really sry for nt telling them I am leaving. But I want to emphasis that I DO NOT forget them. But in any case,I do hope she will forgive me soon...

Its quite late now, oh well, goodnite

2007-03-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

Its beeen one week since I blog! LOL, some interesting events for today, hmm, where should I start?

Today was supposed to have IG neeting at 10am, I woke up at920..wth? I rmb setting my alarm clock at 815. Apprantly, is either the alarm clock dun work or I am deadly alslp..lol. Therefore, no surprising that I was late for 45mins for the meeting. Of course, I was rather surprised that Ruo Wen came much late than me, lol. But in any case, the meeting went rather smoothly with Mr Tai dropping by and ended at1130. Of course, met Mr Leong along the way and have a little chat with him And btw, block 31 have a name, it was named Temasek Culinary Institution, kinda chessy, in some extend..LOL

After that, went to have lunch with Yoke Peng, we chatted and when we about to leave, it begin to rain..BIG TIME. Bascially we got drenched twice(once to the lib and the other back to TM). Because of this, I was kind of forced to buy a pair of slippers from Charles and Keith, haha, then put my very wet Hush Puppies shoes inside the shoes box.

After buying, me and Yoke Peng went our seperate ways. She went to Century Square and I, on the way to Bedok Interchange. And now,thats the fun part:

I went to meet my online friend, Hong Jie..LOL. I wanna really badly to borrow the game from him, therefore, we kinda meet for the first time since we know each other virtually. It was pretty funny, I saw him leaning against the railing waiting and I was kinda think positive was him. When I received the sms, I replied'Behind you' and he saw turn back only once, wth, lol. Then i cant help laughing. After that, he saw me, pass me the game and have a little chat. I was in my usual self, trying to lame but I think I forgot that somewhat first impression matters and I treat him as if I know him in real life for many years. haah, I think he is kinda same, online and real life.

How he looked like? Erm, he said he dun have a look that girls will fall in love easily, I wun agree or disagree. I find him kinda cute a bit, LOL. And of course, a nerdy face(as expected)

Ok, after that, I went back home and went to JB with my parents and grandma, kinda usual rountine. Eat and buy movies(my dad)

Regardless, I have a fun day today!

Gd nite!

2007-03-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

I am sooo bored! LOL, i wonder this is the dunno how many millon times I had repeated this. Even working seems so boring, doing the same thing for so many hours. I just refused to work whole day, opting to do half day or 3/4 day, sian. The journey is like, 1 hr 10-20 mins long, thats why I kinda dreaded going to work..haiz...

I love this blog skin;it strike a chord within me when I saw this, haha. I know I sounded kinda lovesick but I am not. Playing games, work(yes, despite being boring) and thinking of outings with my jie mei men had take been taking place in my mind. I will try not to think bot this issue any longer, I will just like it flow.

And, just a inside joke, to anyone who really understand, maybe only my aunt..haha, that the answer on u know what, is actually lies within my lovely soft toy dog. LOL:

Anyway, I can still see a bleak week ahead, well, perhaps a day or two working but nevertheless, bleak, boring, whatever. Haha. I wish I can have more topics to talk about? So anyone wants me to talk about anything? LOL....

Seeya, gd nite!P

2007-03-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

Yahoo! I finally changed my blogskin! LOL, though the theme remain the same. haha. But still, at least now the past articles can be read..lol..dated back quite a number of years already...haha

Give comment if you can! LOL, thats all for now!

2007-03-19T00:06:00.000+08:00

Seriously, I no sure what to write about as I am erm..currently typing? One thing for sure, the 't' button seems to be..erm...spoil? I need to type extra hard for it to come out. I dun recall using too much 'T' though..if there is any button I used and press too hard, will be the direction keys(ahem..Audition..ahem)...LOL..but not spoilt..hmm..the mystery..haha.

What esle should I blog about? Hmm, let's see. Was supposed to go shopping in Bugis then off to Emily's house to play. However, this morning I got a call from her and said was cancelled because everyone was not free. How come? I wonder though...

Any topics? Dunno what to write about. I was bored...school holidays offically over for the pri, sec, and jc peeps..lol. Now most of the ones I know still in it are now chionging hw..lol...reminda me of the old days, where I believe without a doubt I would be the same also, not blogging now. Haha.

Maybe I should answer some..enquires some of my friends asked? Though you have to guess the questions..hehe

Because that happened to be the first RPG I ever played
I lived near there
I dunno why either, but I just stick to it..LOL
I was taught to do so
Erm, is it my genes...?
To be a teacher..haha
I simply don't like it
Hypocrites(did i spell it correctly)
Not exactly into it but still..haha
I sort out my thoughts and come to realise...somethings are really that simple.

Okay, ans above there? LOL, some are rather obvious, while some required some...thinking. Hehe, this shows how BORED I am currently, dun have planned outings either for this week, except I was going to work on Wednesday-halfday. Not going to stay there for tooo long, besides, I will be going to JB with my parents that day..haha.

What esle what esle? LOL...hmm, I was nurisng my cough right now, throat is so..sore right now. Blame it on friday..man, the whole place is soo blasted to with loud music that I had to shout all the time to just talk to my friends..lol, but is interesting to see ppl...dancing..and no...I was not clubbing, it was just a annual buffet D&D by a company..haha..I so guai where got fo clubbing de..hehe

I was bored to tears right now, yawning away but dun want to sleep..haha. Anyway, I think thats it. Any topics you guys want me to talk about? Or maybe some debate..haha, I miss the old days of debating...lol.

So see ya! Gd nite:))

2007-03-14T19:37:00.000+08:00

3 days 2 night chalet=fun fun fun:D Okay, so many things happen in the chalet but let me skim it down to the impt points...LOL

1st day
Check in! After that, went to buy swinsuits with peh, hy, emily and ht..haha, all of us bought the same design! Later that night, pq and px join us for dinner:)
Later went cycling with the girls fm bicycle rent by the J01 boys(Vinnxi, Dexter, Hong Jie, Jia Lun...Eugene)Have some girls talk and bonded:) Tried to learn cycle as well, haha but right leg just dun dare to peddle...lol)

After that, some of the watch Saw3..very digusted and for the first time, I puke because of its...content...after that went to slp with those...noise going on...

2nd day

Woke up at 11 plus, have breakfast then went to white sands to buy some bbq stuff. More ppl arrived but somehow, i still find some barriers fm the different class, but I believe one day we will be bonded closer:) Not many ppl stay after the bbq, only hy, pq, emily, me, peg, justin, terence and julian..but we have rather...fun pillow fight? haha

Oh ya, before I forgot, the 10 'sister'(courtesy of Ten brothers) were formed, idea from Emily ad they are:

Lao yi-Yoke peng,Lao er-Hui Ying, Lao san-Emily, Lao si-Pei swen, Lao wu-Peggie, Lao six(f0rgive me, i forgot the hanyupinying for six)-Hui Ting, Lao qi-Pei Xin, Lao ba-me!, Lao jiu-Pei Qin, Lao shi-Julian(dun ask...haha)

3rd day

Woke up 10 am to get ready to leave, Justin lost his spec, had a hard time finding it only to realise is in my blue mickey bag when I got hm. Despite the fact that earlier, I took out my laptop and look inside, I cant see it as it was engtagled with my pc wire and is also..kinda black also. Regardless, I still feel very sorry and pei seh from wasting people's time and cause inconvience to him..really really sry...

Then I went to slp at 2...woke up at 4 plus and right on, my results come..rmb that I set my target? Is exactly the same..lol..maybe expect for sociology where I got B+ instead of B...haha..expectation met and one sub did better than I expected, gd gd..haha. And my overall GPA is 2.9..yahoo! Have to work hard next sem to increase it!

Ok now, thats all I got, seeya and gd nite!

2007-03-05T22:35:00.000+08:00

This is what you are supposed to cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game. Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog. -}

1)I imagine myself having split personality...sometimes
2)I will tear up whenever I watch or read a tearjerker stories...easily
3)I always try to get bitten by my dog but at the same time...dun want to be bitten
4)Always like to repeat or say the same thing but forgotten I had already said that
5)I always save my money as much as possible but spent within minutes once I saw Final Fantasy stuff...regardless of the price.
6) Tend to space out and is quite...sacry

Ppl to tag
1)Emily
2)Pei Qin
3)Peggie
4)Wan ting
5)Any random ppl
6)Any random ppl

Haha...I cant believe I was so bored into doing this! LOL

OKay, let see...whats so interesting nowadays? On Sat, I went to despoit my $50, left my ATM card on the cash despoit machine without EVEN realising it and yet happily eating lunch with Agnes, Lee Phin and Jia Hui in a Japanese restaurant. Only on sunday, when i wanted to buy my monthly consession pass DID I realised that I left my ATM card on the machine on the day b4! I quickly call and cancel my card, check my balance with my passbook and lucky the balance is intact, hopefully. I haven check it yet today, got a new atm card but was..haiz...'surrended' to my dad. What luck.

I need someone to work with me!!! Filing invoice is SO boring that I dun feel like going whole day tmr...haiz..I nearly sleep while doing it. $5/hr at Boon Lay anyone? Haiz

I am now posion deeply now, can any1 save me? I just wish I have the courage to say it....

Anyway...I think this will be a pretty boring week, sian..hope next week chalet will be fun :D

Seeya!

2007-02-21T01:10:00.000+08:00

In Love with an impossible dreams that is you.
I wish to wake up but I can't bring myself to.
Longing for you have become my everyday dream.
Waking up will means that you will fade from my dream.

Maybe you should know that I am dreaming of you.
Fear of rejection have prevent me from telling.
Perhaps I should keep silent of my dream of you.
At least in my dream goes what I want to happen.

Nevermind if we cannot be together so.
At least you willing to be my friend that will do.
---To love an impossible dream

There you go! My latest poem! If you count carefully, I have 12 syllbus each in each sentence! Kind of hard to do that but I actually tried to make sense out of it, which I think is rather sucessful. LOL. That poem pretty sum up how I feel.

Anyway...as for cny..it had been fun so far! Collected $196 hongbao so far. hehe..then i gamble but lose $13 so far as well..haiz..not a good year for the snake. LOL. Ok then..looking forward for a brighter future!

Seeya!
Good nite:)

2007-02-15T02:22:00.000+08:00

Wah! I am sooooooo pei seh today..haiz..lol Wun go into the details though..lol

But todays Valentine day is quite fun..recieved few chocolates and ate a bit of them..hehe

Anyway, finally have my right ear piereced! Now this sunday i am going to wear my new earrings! Hehe..this CNY going to be quite expensive..lol

Anyway, nothing much to say leh

Gd nite!
Haha

2007-02-14T01:07:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! LOL
And especially to Emily, who is also currently celebrating her 18 birthday today!
Haha, has lots of fun during steamboat, though I think I mainly drink soup only. haha wasted.

Anyway, this valentine's day is another plain day for me..lol. Haiz, dreams cant hurt right? In my dreams, he will be there...
But I know in reality, the chances are..slim..after all, he got someone he likes.

Anyway, I cant believe that just when I thought I had gotten over a guy...this another makes me feel special, alas, our time spent was too short....

Ok then..gd nite everyone!

Happy Valentine's Day!

2007-02-11T00:41:00.000+08:00

Haha..it been a long time since I blog eh? lol...bz ma..haha.

Anyway, in summary for the things happened:
Most of the projects are finished...well...expect for sociology. LOL
Had CCM junkies yesterday. Have lots of fun with the guys:)

It will be too short if I end it right here right? lol

Okay la..I put some more things

Valentine's day coming up le, as usual, poor me no date..haha.
Well, as if any guys will want to go out with me..LOL

Even though I wish I have a date..but at least with the correct guy ma..LOL
I wish it is him...I really like him, it has been a long time since I felt something like this. I wish I could tell him but the fear of rejection is too much.
OK..hmm..what esle? Exam coming soon! So sian, but got 3 papers only...thats good news? lol. I hope I can get better results from last sem..here is my aim:

Econs: B
Maketing:B
POM:B+
Hygiene: B
Comm skills:B
Jap:B+
Sociology: B

Haha..all Bs..lol..getting A is very hard...so I think having B will be good enough. i will update on my actual results next time..hopefully wun kana supp paper..lol
Gees..sound like secondary school times where u must write down ur targeted marks. Haha

Gtg le..gd night:))

2007-01-15T01:36:00.000+08:00

LOL. I am going to post my past poems here. Haha, this poem is about my maths,

Maths Maths Maths
It is getting me mad
Mad Mad Mad
This is what I will be from doing maths

Fail Fail Fail
I keep failing my maths
Frail Frail Frail
This is my standard of maths

Tried Tried Tried
I already done my best
Tired Tired Tried
I just want to sleep in mynest

Haiz Haiz Haiz
My heart is dead for maths
Ya Ya Ya
But I had no choice but to do maths

Haha..this is what I wrote last time when i was in sec 4 ba. haha

Anyway, whats happening nowadays to me? Hmm..finish my marketing project..thanks to my grp members, lub them all!
But sad news is..my cyber dog..'Lucky' is gone. Dunno y..haiz..now training new lucky....

Ok then, i continue to do my other projects le.
Seeya!
Gd nite:)))

2007-01-04T00:24:00.000+08:00

Remember the last dance we had?
Remember the way our eyes met?
When the shooting stars glide by?

As I fall right into your arms
I know that I am for you
But alas,
We are not meant to be together.

We now getting on with our own lives
Moving on.
But I cant help but remember,
When I saw a shooting stars glide by

The way we had danced
Our last beautiful dance as one.

I dunno why but I came up with this out of the blue. Somewhat reflect my life in the past.

Anyway, my wish for new year will be..hmm...

Be a optimists, I think I am kinda a pessists instead.
Lose weight...LOL
Be happy.

Thats all. haha. Anyway, comment on my poem if u happen to read it. Thanks!

2006-12-31T02:05:00.000+08:00

Had just done my sociology test. Results? 9,9,8,10,9. Total, 45/ 50. But only consists 12.5% of the whole coursework. haha.

I can say I make some stupid carless mstake. Never read the questions carefully. Spend $29.50 for the textbook for the test. haah, worth it though. especially ever see the previous test paper, it really is. The fill in the blank is really a KILLER. lol

well, at least i got one worry off my mind. next will be all the projects! well, deadline is closing in and the time of the year is coming very soon...final exams! oh well, i guess worry bot that later!

Anyway. have a jolly gd year!

Gd nite:))))

2006-12-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

Hmm...watch Night in the Museum with my godsis Cassandra. Well, I am kinda used to call her using her chinese name rather than English butwell, writing is anothing thing, haha.

Oh well, I guess things went pretty roller coaster nowadays, I realised that that are lots f things u can compared and u need to seek to clarify. But then again, human nature tend to assume things and few will really go the extra miles to clear it. Happens to me, you and everyone. We are humans after all...haha

Anyway, I spend quite a sum this week. Almost what I earned into spending. Haha, got to save some money. LOL. My aim for the year end of 2007 is to have at least $3500 in my bank...hehe, seems hard from the way I spent and the fact that I am $1000+++ away from my goal...haha, unless I strike some lucky draw or something LOL

Okay, I think I end my random topic here. Good night:)))

2006-12-25T11:23:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas! LOL HOHOHO

I dunno why i feel this way but I really feel this way. What went wrong, what had I done to deserve this. I had tried but I am kind of tired of trying now. I am never part of them. I had seen clearly what I really mean to some of them this festive season. I cant help but to feel hurt and... betrayed. I treat all my friends equally and hopefuly well but I think this is all I get. I cant help but to feel that I am pain in the butt to them and wishes to get rid of me asap

I may not be a perfect friend, I had faults that many find irraiting, annoying, but I tried to change.

It seems that I am destined to be lonely for the rest of my life. I may have lots of friends but I have never had a one true best friend. But still, I will continue trying, and maybe some day, I may find a best friend.

Good nite...Merry Christmas

2006-12-17T02:38:00.000+08:00

Haha..my first bloogy with my new lappy! LOL. Though the mouse can be annoying..haha..i think i will take sme time to get use to it. lol

well...lets see...the week had gone so fast and the new year is coming! Yahoo...happy pre merry chirtmas and 2007 haha. LOL

I read a news article today and realise how right they were when they said even teenagers who blog seldom bare their souls to the public. True...even now I still dun dare to write anything down for fear in upsetting someone..haiz...i think blogging is quite restricted in some sense that u find urself not wanting to write everything down.

Anyway, I just read some1's blog...i wun say who but i realise my so call 'importance' to that person. well...i will go much in details but to say that I dun really feel good after reading it..like i dun even exist. It didn't indirectly insult me or anything but..oh well..i think i will just let it pass..haiz.. Maybe I think too much or sth but i just...dunno...

Oh well, it will going to be a bz week. But i do looking forward for the overnight chirstmas' eve stay even though i cannot make it most of the night due to work commitment. oh well...have to work extra hard to maintain this lappy...

Ok that's all folks. Got to be the longest entry eh?

I shall end with a note then...

"There will be friends forever but there will not be forever friends"
True? I leave it up to u to decide for urself

Gd nite:))

2006-12-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

I came across my diary when I was Sec 1 and when..I have lots of laugh. Haha...I cant imagine myself writing that now...anyway, I dun mind revealing my sercets of the year 2002..
Here goes..(My comment as a now..'mature' 17 years old

1.I killed 10 ants(I dun remember counting)
2. I play computer for more than 2 hours a day(True)
3.Sleep all day(True..till now)
4. Scold my fishes(I did that?)
5. Hide my earphones(Ya, I still remember playing hide and seek with my brother for that)
6. Go to friend's house(used to be a 'crime' by my parents)
7. Type wrong letter(What letter?)
8. Drink bubble tea(My mum ban me last time from drinking it)
9.Telling bad things about F4(I really dun like F4 that time..dunno why)
10. Feed my fish with medicine.(I dun remember hating my fishes so much)
11.Pretend not to be jealous(over what? I cant remeber)
12. Read more than 10 more likely meant for adults romance novels(I still read that now)
13.Write bad poems(Sometimes I do)
14. Scold author for not updating stories(Childish..I know)
15.Make the person I like hate me(I used to do that. Now..is the opposite:P)

LOL. I wrote all that when I was 12 going on to 13. Haha. I cant help but to remember that good old times when I still have my tainted rose glass on. Haha. Maybe..I should starts writing sercets of the year 2006..lol. But I wun post it up..hehe:P

Gd nite

2006-12-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

"The death of a loved one. For they that remain grown weaker and weaker. For they who remain the wound grown weaker and weaker, their hearts in bondage,"

"All is illusion, but there is a truth within a illusion. When the illusion fades, the truth will still resonate within you."
"Try to remember your former self, remember how you used to feel, remember how you used to want."

-Valkyrie Profile-Lenneth

I dunno why but I love these quote dearly. Somehow, it do reflect some phrase of our lives...I guess so..

Sometimes I just dunno what's happening around me, everything go so fast. I tried to catch up but I sometime feel out of breath trying to do so.

Who am I...what am I...what is my purpose for being in this world? Till now, I am still asking myself this.

Tan Sze Yin Jacyln(Chen Shiyin Jacyln)...everyone know me by this name. This name is the first gift by my parents and I will honour it. But I wonder, what happen if they give me another name? Will I be different from what I am today? Is our names linked to our fate...our destiny? Hmmm...I wonder. Haha. Though I wish..I could add one more name to my IC, and i will do so once i turned 21..and that name..? Well, I guess people should know by now eh?

Gd nite:)

2006-12-01T01:03:00.000+08:00

I highlight my hair brown! LOL with tratment cut and wash everything..haha from JB. Sponsor by dear mummy and a bit from me..LOL

My hair softer now I guess? Haha, but the colour not much different..haha, but oh well, at least it is slightly diff..lol

My hairstylist for the day is Louis...recommanded by mum. He is well..more femmine..thats all i can say..haha. but a nice person neverthless.

Next treatment? B4 CNY. Hopefully I have enough money by then..lol

Oh ya, I have quite a lot of fun on tues..haha. take my very first neoprint with HY, PEG, PQ and TE. Quite fun and well..due to space constraint, i leave it to let whoever that is reading to see the prints in PQ and PEG blogXD

Tmr comm skills test, hope I can make it and well..POM quiz..hmm..I hope I can make it as well...

Gd nite:)

2006-11-27T22:45:00.000+08:00

I got lots of things to say..but dunno where and how I should begin..hmmm

Okay, for a past few days, I work at suntec chinese kitchen. quite stress but the reward is not so bad..lol. got quite lots to eat.haha

then what esle...hmm..tired nowadays? lacking of slp i guess...haiz

audition sea is fun! too bad i cant play in my com..sad..:( stupid com

hmm..lets see..really nothing to say for now. i got lots of thing to say but now i am so tired...dun want to say too much..morever, later my com hang..haha..restart all over agin..not gd..lol

haha..till next time!

2006-11-22T00:17:00.000+08:00

Today went late for econs lecture...so late that I didn't go in. haha. 9.40 like that? lol. So went to the library to borrow a book on jap garden. haha

Comm skills very funny. For some odd reasons, I decided to 'copy' the way japanese people. Haha..plan backfire and now, I am label as the "Japanese Robot" Haha. Actually very funny. But I am glad I can get people to laugh. I love to make people laugh but sometimes the process is...lost somewhere. and they end up being 'cold' lol.

Love it when ppl around me is laughing and happy. like what my drama teacher once said, 'we must entertain our audience and make them worry free..even for a moment' or something like that..dun really rmb..haha

Must put this quote
"Some are born with greatness, Some achieve greatness and some have greatness thrust upon them"-WIllian Shakespeare, Twelfth Night

I still love this quote, which simply means either we are born with the ability or work hard to achieve it. However, we should not wait for success doing nothing. We must work hard for it:)

Cant wait for tmr SPCA flagday..haha. Think thats all for my pretty boring entry and perhaps you dun undertstand half of it. lol

Ja..Manta!

Gd nite:)

2006-11-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

Wah..so many things I wanna post about but dunno where to begin, so maybe I give a brief summary? lol

On friday, went to work...as usual and ends at 11. went for spca talk with a very kawaii black gog! I hug it and it's so soft..love it! lol. But i am angry and sad and the same time in hearing those animals that being abuse. How could there be such ppl around!?!?!

Anyway, went peixin house and went for a swim! finally know how to swin...a little! lol. Cook up my cheesey egg..hope every1 liked! Played twisters and whole noday ache..haiz..old. went back a bit later than last week and am slightly not happy that they keep dragging..lucky still manage to catch 858..lol. Having a 'chase' of my life.

On sat, nothing much, woke up late...decide to go jap garden but last min did not go..go sun instead. went to godsis hse and see her mapling..ALMOST got addicated...haha

on sun, went jap garden with er gu but it is closed! :( but went to feed turtle. so fun and so cute! feed the big turtle with cumcember andwow, they are strong. if they bite my hand i am sure i will bleed and a flesh off..eww...

and now..curenly typing nosense in here..no one reading? haha..may go jb in the morning..haha..buy lots of thing there le..lol..then rush back for htm lect..but most imprt..econ tut.

end of my 'short-cut' typing

Seeya
Gd nite..LOL

2006-11-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

Just read my godsis blog..wah..she's 163 cm le..sob..i still struck with 160..sob..still rmb she shorter than me..haiz..haha..thats show how much she grow eh? Wonder how she's now..lol..too bz to talk to her recently...

Anyway, sch's getting stress..going to hand in project next week..haiz

Still struggling with my Japanese..lol..hopefully I can speak basic Japanese by the end of next sem!

Lol..cant wait to go kitchen next sem..haha. Waiting to cook up a diaster! haha

2006-11-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

Wow..I cant believe I update everyday for almost a week! LOL...miracle...haha. But I wonder if I should continue since no one seems to tag me;( hey..at least let me know ur reading..lol..otherwise I feel like writing to a wall..lol..haha

Today woke up late..due to raining and such? Mom asked me go see Dr Tan but I dun want..waste of money..haha. Late for lecture but luckily did not miss out much.

Still nursing a bad cough but is getting better..lol..though throat still hurts....haha

Today take 969..infront 858..then at the Yishun Mrt stop I somewhere squeeze my way out..kinda kiasu...afraid bus will run..then a auntie seems annoyed with me..well..sorry..

Met Khirual(sp?) in the bus...talk abit for his JC life..lucky me no go JC..haha..seems quite stress there..

Oh well..tmr not going for my 'supposed' time slot of econs...crush in on wed de..haha..only next tues then go..lol

But you know..somehow, project grouping seems to be a sensitive topic..like today..econs grouping..when I asked..every1 seems tense..well..for some reason..I cant help but feel like a garbage..waiting for some1 to pick me up unwilling and into their group...never a time I feel so confident about grouping..just only waiting for whatever group that needs a leftover..haiz..I feel soooo..well..I dunno whate to say...

Gd Nite:)

2006-11-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

Hmm...suppose to make tapioca cake today...but..the topica spolit!!! In the end, have to use the coconut to make curry chicken for dinner..haha

I am so glad that everything is all right now. Really love this class. I hope that nothing of this sort will never happen again!

Oh well..nothing much to say now..tmr is another new day..lol

Gd nite:)

Sleepy...

2006-11-11T22:22:00.000+08:00

Sleep the whole day today! Cant believe I slept till 4 plus today! Maybe I am very tired..and nursing a very bad cough..haiz..

Nothing much happen for today cept that I watch Crocdile Hunter the Movie...reminds me of Steve Irwin..man..he was kind of my idol for animal conservation and it is quite sad he departed early..leaving behind his wife and two children..haiz...life is full of unexpected things..

Anyway, as I am typing things, I wish that everything will be back to normal again. I hate it when things suddenly turn out like this and I dunno how to say or act to ease things...haiz..sian

Good nite:)

...?

2006-11-11T00:46:00.000+08:00

Today...I went to work at Defi for about 4 hours in the morning before I left to meet Pei Qin at 2 to go to Hougang to do projects.

While doing projects, I realised that there is something wrong and somehow...tension in the air...?
I dunno what exactly happen so I got no right to comment. All I can say is...I hope everything will went back to normal as before...

Anyway, went to Pei Xin house for a mini gathering. I like her swimming pool..used to dream of having one when I was very young..haha. Later take cab home witn Hui Ying and Pei Qin to Yishun and then take 858 home. Must remember to pay her on Monday...lol

On the last notes...I hope everything will turn up well. It takes destiny to know and make friends with one another and I hope that all of us could cherish it as long as possible...

Good Nite:)

Surprise!

2006-11-09T21:49:00.000+08:00

Surprise!

Haha..two updates in a week! LOL..kinda rare..maybe will die down someday or soon..I dunno...Haha.

So many things had happen..dunno where to start. Good and bad..all have haooened this year..in which sometimes it goes to fast for my liking I guess...

Sometimes...I just wish I can go back to the good old days of being carefree and worry free..haha...when I was supposed to be 6 or 7?

Is it true then? There will be friends forever but no forever friends? Well..we shall see eh...

Seeya folks..whoever that is reading...
*gush of wind blow by...*

Long time no see

2006-11-08T22:27:00.000+08:00

It's been a long long time I updated..haha..I am really lazy to the very bit..update like..once or twice a year? lol

Nothing much to say but well..kind of into blogging since I saw my classmates ones..but oh well..no one is going to read my blah blah cause it is BORING..lol

All I can say so far is...I learnt quite a lots of new things, make a lots of new friends and as usual, being the odd one out sometimes...

Anyway, since no one is reading...I think..I will not say much about my current life...all I can say is...

It's beem fun...

And oh ya, I am still in with Final Fantasy...especially VIII...since primary 6 and still am..wonder when I'll start behave 'normally' like a girl. I can say that I am being..deviance? lol

2006-05-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

Hmm...it had been 1 year 1 week since I l;ast blog. Sad huh? Lazy is the reason why actually..haha.

Lots of things had past. Done my O-Level with 19 points for R5 and 14 points for R4..just average actually. I could have done better. Haha

Anyway, I always wanna go NAFA but in the end, go for Temask Poly for Culinary and Catering Course. Why? Maybe the reality of life kicks in I guess. Well, is a long story...BUT

I will never give up my passion for Drama! GO Drama! lol

Anyway, for my fic Nothing Love, it is on the backburner now I guess, nothing to kick me on for completeing it..haiz

Anyway, dunno when will be the next time I blog but well....haha

BB..next time!

2005-04-22T19:47:00.000+08:00

Waiting....

Everyday I waited...finding excuse to slow down my pace and wait...

But what to I get in the end...?

Is nothing more than just heartache yet at the same time...joy as well...

Don't know what I am talking about...then well...maybe you can figure it out yourself...

Well...let's go to other subjects...

Having my mid-year examination for English today...I had no idea what to write in my summary for Paper 2 but well...overall...I hope I can do well...

But good news is...I can have to resolve to complete my chapter...partly because of the compo I wrote today but well...hehe...I hope I can really update my chapter by weekends...

That's all folks...I hope that everyone will do well in their examinations!