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Monday, November 19, 2007
Locking my heart away,
from the scream and cries,
that is outside of my locked heart.
I became emotionless
but nevertheless,
the screams and cries continue
to cause a crack at the door.
The screams and cries,
finally seep through the crack
Though little,
it is enough to make me crack.
But still, the door remain locked tight,
as I repair the crack every night
So that I could be,
the way I want to be,
and others to see
The smiles, joke and laughter I made,
It is not fake,it is from within my heart,
Thats because, I locked all my sadness away,
refuse to think about it and smile,
day by day
Contradiction after contradiction,
I keep my sadness in me,
and give away my happiness,
leaving the sadness to haunt me,
night by night.
So now, how I wish, someone
will have the key to my locked heart
unlocked it. and help me, take away all my sadness.
Let me cry out all at once,
then slowly, give me happiness to keep in my heart.
But for now, before that someone will come,
I will continue to lock away my sadness
give away my happiness.
Till the day, I finally crack totally,
Finally...no more...
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So hows was it? Hmm..ok i think. Got lots of things I wish to blog about...maybe next time ba. And now, nursing my badly cracked lips, on a 2 days MC..kinda first time since I entered poly..oh well. Still thinking if going to school tmr even I on MC..haiz. Maybe stay at home to study? Then wed...haiz. I am the host for top table. Hopefully, I will not screw up like guiing wrong tableetcetc...haiz..
Ja ne
Friday, November 09, 2007
Hmm..today was my pro test part 1. Haiz, didn't went that well. I think I pass, but is the more of the border line de...oh well, can pass can liao..lol.
Section 1, set table of 4. Alightment was like waaayyy off, lol. But my timing is 2min46secs..so I can confirm I got 5.5/10 for this station. Not that bad...I guess...hehe
Section 2, clear table. Ahh! I so blur go take tray and cleat glasses first! WRONG! wasted time on that. haiz, then timing I think is either 1 or 0 mark..since Ms Mark wasn't really that clear on how long I took...lol. Then overall..let me see, least will be 13/20, at most 16/20(obviously I prefer the latter..lol)
Section 3, serve the table. Ok, I think I serve very fast in terms of the mocktails but way slowfor the main course because I scare of the hot plates..haiz...anyway..timing is 3 min 40 secs..haiz...slow..only 0.5 marks..oh well..,let see for this section..I think..least I will get is 6/10, most 6.5/10
So overall, the least I can get is 24.5 to at most 28/40(of course, again, the latter is always preferred...lol)..oh well. 10% of this week. Now, next week, the other 10%..the more diffcult one, I should say...haiz..hope I can score too..
Wish me luckXD
See ya all!
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Well, quite a time had past since I started school eh? So many things to say, that is hard to express them in words. Maybe I will try to, but dun blame me if you cant understand at all...lol
Let's see, Service Practium, a rather fun but very stress subject, speaking of which, I am having part 1 of the pro test this Fri..lol. For sure, I am going to forgone the marks for alightment, something I NEVER get it right, so..just chiong lor...at least get 4 marks instead of lose potenially more marks..lol. I hope I can survive this Fri test and next week's one. LOL
Speaking of which, another test, Jap..I FAILED! Ok, I kinda serve myself right. I mean..study for only 1 hr and u expect urself to pass, especially when the passing rate is 60%..I gotta dream on..lol..oh btw..I got 42%..erm..actually, slightly better than I thought la..but I will try again!
What esle, I realise that I am a introvert extrovert? Huh u wonder. Basically, I am a introvert, prefer not to talk unless is the topic of my interest? Only when someone starts to talk to me then I will go into the extrovert mode. Basically, I will be a extrovert if I feel that people is accepting me...however, once I feel rejected, out or somehow feel out of place, I will turn into a introvert...I think every1 see it now. I donno why, but I think inside of me is trying to find some answer that I dunno what is the question in the first place that makes me quite alone. But of course, as stated above, once I feel that they dun mind me, I will be like last time. In fact, with my own cca group, I am rather 'loud' in a sense...lol..maybe I feel more at ease at them ba...
But then seriously, I dunno whats wrong with me nowadays, but dun worry, I wun be eating ppl out and I am pretty much the same old me ba..I guess..just look, sound and feel like anti-socialing(emo) that gives the impression that I think people may not want to come near me ba...I dunno..haiz...PR is such a complex matter...
Hmm..what esle? Oh well, I guess next time ba..
Seeya!
