Squall X Rinoa 4 Ever!
Monday, November 19, 2007
Locking my heart away,
from the scream and cries,
that is outside of my locked heart.
I became emotionless
but nevertheless,
the screams and cries continue
to cause a crack at the door.
The screams and cries,
finally seep through the crack
Though little,
it is enough to make me crack.
But still, the door remain locked tight,
as I repair the crack every night
So that I could be,
the way I want to be,
and others to see
The smiles, joke and laughter I made,
It is not fake,it is from within my heart,
Thats because, I locked all my sadness away,
refuse to think about it and smile,
day by day
Contradiction after contradiction,
I keep my sadness in me,
and give away my happiness,
leaving the sadness to haunt me,
night by night.
So now, how I wish, someone
will have the key to my locked heart
unlocked it. and help me, take away all my sadness.
Let me cry out all at once,
then slowly, give me happiness to keep in my heart.
But for now, before that someone will come,
I will continue to lock away my sadness
give away my happiness.
Till the day, I finally crack totally,
Finally...no more...
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So hows was it? Hmm..ok i think. Got lots of things I wish to blog about...maybe next time ba. And now, nursing my badly cracked lips, on a 2 days MC..kinda first time since I entered poly..oh well. Still thinking if going to school tmr even I on MC..haiz. Maybe stay at home to study? Then wed...haiz. I am the host for top table. Hopefully, I will not screw up like guiing wrong tableetcetc...haiz..
Ja ne